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I should be going soon. I want to exercise before attending class. But, I wanted to post this in my journal. I weighed myself today. I've lost 5 pounds since the last time I weighed myself. Physically, I don't see a change and noone has said they've noticed a change in me physically. It makes no sense. I have been trying to be careful with ( Read more... ) -
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So many things going on, too many things to count. I think it's very healthy to have a journal like this and to have support from others even if the support might seem surface.
In this month, there has been a major paradigm shift for me. I've opened my eyes to that which I have been doing and made a conscious decision to change. I suppose that ( Read more... ) -
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General Update on life
I've just decided to update for several reasons. Primarily it is for personal reason since while I haven't become antisocial, I have become more interested in just being me, being in my skin for a change (which is something I'm happy to say I finally feel comfortable doing ( Read more... ) -
Something I just wanted to take note of...
I recently received a job doing technical support which I'm really excited about! I just worry that it may encumber my schooling. I know one thing for sure. My time-task dilation has increased (meaning I will now have less time to do what I need to do and definately less time to do what I wish to). I plan on withdrawing from a particular class ( Read more... ) -
Regarding some text I've found about Valentine's Day
The Catholic church initially announced Valentine's Day in order to combat Lupercalia, a festival of eroticism that honored Juno Februata, the goddess of "feverish" (febris) love. Annually, on the ides of February, love notes or "billets" would be drawn to partner men and women for feasting and sexual game playing ( Read more... ) -
(Narrative) I Danced.
I danced not knowing when the dance will end, I danced hoping that it would last forever, hoping that my body would never give up or give out, leave me lifeless on the floor. I almost imagined that I emolliate into some sort of organism that thrived and lived on dancing, leaving everything within my past behind me into a penultimate event that ( Read more... ) -
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As many times as I've seen the death of a relationship: be it friendship, intimate, etc.; I still hate seeing it or feeling it...yet it occurs far too often with us. People close themselves off from one another due to misconception, apprehension and sometimes even paranoia. Or perhaps it's something more dreadful than the three put together: ( Read more... ) -
Pre-Dawn
Chasing a swinging pendulum. The crescent-shaped pendant rolling lazily, lulling me into a false serenity underneath a darkness so gray and grey is my emotion as glide along smoothly the path laid out for me, or should I speak of paths; that one branching and splitting off, merging to form a complex web of multitudinous choices in a darkness so ( Read more... ) -
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Well, Friday, November 3rd my mother was released from the hospital. She had to have surgery and I wasn't able to post all of that stuff mainly because I was just so worried about her. My overactive imagination mused at what would become of me if she passed. Right now, it feels like she's one of the few people I can really count on to be there ( Read more... )