Change is really hard for me to deal with. I guess it never bothered me that much until recently. I've started to notice how all my old friends have changed, how my current friends have changed, how I've changed, and so on. Don't get me wrong, I know things are going great for me and I shouldn't complain. I just can't help living in the past. I don ( Read more... )

It really sucks not knowing what's wrong with me. I hate not knowing why I can't sleep at night or why I can't stop crying sometimes. I've honestly forgotten. I haven't been able to focus on my own problems in a long time, and now I don't even know why I feel this way. I can't find a way to deal with it or solve it. I can't even tell people why I'm ( Read more... )

You know, when I look back at old entries when I used to say "it can't get any worse than this", i can't believe how wrong i was ( Read more... )

i guess my feelings right now can be summarized into three main points. friends, communication, and the "weight ( Read more... )

yeah. i deleted that last entry. i still think that way, but whatever.

new policy: the next time i have a thought, i'll shut up. nobody needs or wants to know about things like that.

I have a girlfriend again. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal this time, though. Maybe it's because it feels like we've been dating for months. Plus, I'm not desperate for a girlfriend lke I was in junior high. I don't mind the distance that much. It would be nice if I could move Mona and Dörte here to Arizona, but for now I'm just glad to be ( Read more... )

This is just a song I've been writing for the past hour or so and I decided to share it with you guys. It's not finished yet, since all I have right now are lyrics. I'll probably even change the lyrics later, but for now, here's what I have. Everything in this song is a metaphor, so it's not really about a city burning down or anything like that.

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So much has been happening lately. It's starting to get far too overwhelming. I can't think positive anymore, my nightmares keep getting worse, and it seems as though I'll never be able to be the person everybody else wants me to be ( Read more... )

I was right when I said today was going to be worse. I just didn't realize how bad it was going to be ( Read more... )

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my entire life, and so far, today is going much worse ( Read more... )