There have been a lot of changes. Not major, huge, life-changing, relocation, type changes... but subtle, probably long-lasting, personal changes that are happening right now. They're happening for you too, since we are ever-changing beings, right ( Read more... )

And I have been thinking. My thoughts are healthier. More or less to come....

I seems like all my waking hours today were spent preparing or eating food. I feel like I ate a LOT but I don't think it exceeded 1500 calories, I fucking hope. Today I had ( Read more... )

I feel like a giver of false hope, a fraud, someone who is only programmed to hurt other people. There isn't any satisfaction gained at the expense of others emotions. Simply put, I do not know what I want. I've been struggling with this for a while now. Not feeling anything with any real conviction sometimes makes me feel dead, if that makes sense ( Read more... )

I feel like writing today but I'm just so tired. Maybe I'll force it out before I forget this feeling. Nevermind. Tired wins.

What does it mean to have waves of intense emotions that change from moment to moment. One day I'm feeling, with total conviction, a certain way... then *poof* it subsides and I'm left wondering why I even felt that stupid feeling in the first place and move on to feeling something totally different. I don't know if it is just stemming from not ( Read more... )

I feel like I've finally got my head screwed on right. The last few days have just been miserable. I've locked myself up in my house and moped around like the proverbial lump on a log. I finally woke up and snapped out of it this evening ( Read more... )

I wanted to write a long entry about the goings on but I'd rather just keep quiet.

Goldfish are fucking stupid.

I've been feeling rather busy lately. Nothing especially exciting going on, just the intense craziness of my job and the disjointed life I lead ( Read more... )