aww merry christmas eve everybody!!!. linsey was telling me today about how her and jcakie always go sledding at the jumps on vacation. and how she wantes me to come too this yea because its fun!! :). that makes me HAPPY. umm and im going to elma tonight**
to my aunts. jam packed with people. yes yesss. okay well im gunna go. MeRRy CHRiSTMaS**<3 ( Read more... )

hmm weird day. im seriously so sad..about freaking them. and its so weird..i see THEm in the halls together..way more often that usual and i hateee myself. jesus. catherine bought me a really pretty green shirt. :) THANKS CATHERINE. and AMBER bought me some amazing..rainbowish..star earrings that im wearing right nowwwww. and marion bought me a ( Read more... )

THIS. LIFE. SUCKS. ahh. everything gets ruined. ruined. ruined. and yes. i DO want to die..right now..and i dont care if anyone says im pretty or non-fat. because im not pretty. and i am fat. and i hope i get ran over by a BUS. :(

somehow when the track of my life starts to speed up..some huge boulder stops it. every good friend i get..seems to slip from my grasp. and i feel like were falling apart..just like every other friendship ive had**
someone. just kill me. because anywhere out of this life of mine is where i belong**
i sware i dont fit in..

hmm my weekend. friday i was supposed to go to the SHOW. but i guess not :{. so i went to the mall with my mom and sister. uhh saturday. i went to see CHRISTMAS WITH THE KRANKS. and it was good. but not as good as it was cut out to be. and then we went to dinner at FRIDAYS. yess yumm. uhh sunday. i spent a ot of time wrapping presents and doing ( Read more... )

still feel like total crap..i hate this and nothing will ever pick itself up..it just lays on the ground..motionless..expecting me to understand. so heres some boring stuff. watch nobody do it..

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you ( Read more... )

yeah. im only updating this cuz its morning. nobodys on. and im bored. funny thing is..i have nothing to say! nothing new there..i was supposed to go to the show last night..but my mom had to be gay..oh well..i most likely wouldve felt left out..like usual when i go places. im just gunna stay home from now on. i made the mistake of going to the ( Read more... )

Dear Mr. Jesus, I just had to write to you ( Read more... )

YAY. i put my journal back in christmas mode. to get in the spiritt WOO HOO. you better get in it too. okay soo hmm. the past two days have been like usual. theyre all the same. thursday catherine might be coming over..and then were gunna go to vinnys. and zachs gunna be there! i miss him so much and its only been two days of school. i have to lat ( Read more... )

fuck you. im going to frigging like. shoot myself someday. ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. i hate everyone. everyone just has to lie in this world and be mean..
bye.