okay - so - candie and i are still friends. i really need to stop thinking that just because someone is mad at me, annoyed, or needs space, they don't want to be friends anymore. im still kind of depressed, but i feel a little better, ruth picked me up and told me to get stuff for the night because she told me there are all the bad storms in the ( Read more... )

i keep how i feel away from you - you get mad and say that secrets dont make friends, i try to tell you how i feel and you say i'm an attention whore, well what the fuck - what do you want me to do. it feels like no matter what i do - everyone things it's wrong. it seems like nothing i do is right - everything just pisses everyone off, and it seems ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like something bad happens to everything you touch or surrounds you? I can't stop feeling like that. It seems like bad streak of luck one after another. When we all went to the beach and Kathleen's car broke down, I seriously felt if I had not gone that night it would not have happened. I feel like bad things happen to people ( Read more... )

So, I haven't updated lately, but I've been insanely busy and just plain insane. It turns out that they found "something" during my grandma's cancer tests, she is now going to have a bone marrow test tomorrow, she has been a trooper, but i am still very scared for her. She is now alone, my aunt is on her cruise trip, we were going to maybe go back ( Read more... )

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he asks why i didn't tell him until just last night that i miss him as much as i do, but i never answered. well, you want to know, here it goes. i didn't say it because i was affraid that it was going to end up like it is right now. you do nothing but play games, maybe that's why that girl said she thought you were immature. you say that you're ( Read more... )

Jumping for Joy ( Read more... )

So, yeah - last night i didn't get to sleep until about 3:45 a.m., and then I woke up about 3 times until it was about 7:30 and my mom woke me up with some breakfast and my meds. I fell back asleep for a while, then got up and took a shower, and here I sit in the Hi-Tech lab at school. I was supposed to meet Tammy between 11:45 and 12, but i went ( Read more... )

tears rolling down my face ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of your lies ( Read more... )