I wish I could of done more. I know he had talked to his mom not too long ago about wanting to see a herapist about being depressed. A couple of months ago he had mention something about being depressed. He had told me he didn't think moving to LA was worth moving away from me,..away from vegas. I had mention to maybe seek counseling or a ( Read more... )

Mechanical Asphyxiation ( Read more... )

I am just going through my t-mobile account,...looking at all my pictures so I am just posting up random pictures ( Read more... )

When I first came here to move to Vegas I remember right before I left my house I started to cry. I was going to be alone without my family,..my brothers,..my grandparents. I knew that I had to leave, to grow as a person to be independant to learn how to live on my own. I couldn't really call home because I would always end up crying because I ( Read more... )

A week before Luciano passed away I had gone to the ghetto of Vegas downtown, to take care of some tickets after I headed to the mall to go get some make up from MAC. I had my make up done because I do not know how to put on make up and I wanted to learn and know what make up to put on. So this cute skinny black girl did my make up and at first I ( Read more... )

I found a picture of Luciano in my cell phone. I am so mad at myself. From Christmas I have been procrastinating to get a digital camera for the simple fact that me and Luciano do not have any pictures together. Every time Luciano would come visit me in Vegas, since he moved with Mike in LA in September for work he would always get mad because I ( Read more... )

I took some pictures from my camera phone on the flight back to Vegas on Sunday (ghetto I know)which was delayed! The pictures look good on my phone but for some reason look horrible online. Any how when I was coming back from LA we flew through the clouds for about a good 10 minutes which looked really calming because the sun was also setting ( Read more... )

I was talking to my roommate who was friends with Luciano and is also friends with Luciano's uncle Jose who I have met. Renan was saying that he had talked to Jose and basically whenever he thinks about Luciano that something will happen like a tapping or he would turn off his phone and it would turn on by itself and Jose knew it was Luciano. I ( Read more... )

I just finished talking to my mom. We were talking about how someone had said that I was too "pretty" for my boyfriend. Which disturbed me. I loved Luciano with all my heart. I fell in love with him for who he was, his personality, his ambitions, his heart. I loved him unconditionally. To me he was the most handsomest man. When I fantasized ( Read more... )

Its amazing how much I gained weight in such a short amount of time,..horrible