Good guys don't make it because it's survival of the fittest and in the world of dating...they aren't fit. Too passive, too sensitive, not aggressive enough, no initiative, the girls don't even know the good guy exist. While the bad guys are out in the spotlight ..the good guys are sitting there like "i guess i'll wait my turn" or when they simply ( Read more... )

I can't wait for the day when I wake up and feel nothing for you. This feeling that I have is new, as typically I miss the person whom I gave myself to yet we no longer communicate. But this......this isn't that. I feel......stupid. I feel as if I truly gave myself to someone who didn't deserve it nor appreciate it. I'm resentful which I never ( Read more... )

I need space. I need you to back up until further notice. I am not here to give you some purpose in your everyday life. I think you confuse your concern with needing to feel useful. Its not my job to assist you in being productive in your everyday life. it's not my job to make you feel. I'm so sick of being easily accessible. Sometimes I don't want ( Read more... )

I'm not a religious person but I am spiritual. Right now my spirit is weak and I am begging for strength from somewhere so I can get past this. I'm SO tired of being stupid. I'm SO tired of being attracted to broken and tainted projects. It hurts so much. I can not for the life of me understand my reasoning for taking shit from someone like him. I ( Read more... )

So I'm home in St. Louis for break Friday. I started work (Victoria's secret, been there about 4 years now) Sunday. Thus far, I've managed to be really crabby and moody, have cramps that were so painful they might as well had been a miscarriage (Really nature? You really didn't have equality in mind when you created males and females did you? I ( Read more... )

"They're all part of the list, things that I miss. Things like your, funny little laugh, or the way you smile, or the way we kissed. What I noticed is this..I come up with..something new every single time..that I sit and reminisce .."

On our way back from Arkansas ( which I'll elaborate about more in a second) I was waiting for some song to ( Read more... )

I hate people. i fucking hate people. not even just people with penises. i'm so irritated right now that as smart as I am and as much as i've grown, i still become the same dumb ass little girl I once was when I'm around a certain person. Giving waaaay too much leeway and letting waay too many things happen that NO ONE I mean NO ONE (not even the ( Read more... )

First and foremost.....I sick :(     I woke up at 6am this morning with a sinus migraine and still managed to be late for my 9:30 class. Fell asleep in my 3rd class, had a line across my forehead, was freezing in my 4th class and my nose wouldn't stop running in my 5th class, so I left class early, got food, vitamin c and fell asleep from 5pm to 9: ( Read more... )

I have to put on a dress today. I never wear dresses. One of my best friends is getting married today. I'm going alone....grand. Apparently I'm leading a million people on by telling them I don't date or have relationships and making it obvious that I'm emotionally unavailable. The one person I've wanted is unavailable in some way that is ( Read more... )

Ok there are a few battles happening within myself that have been hard to express or articulate to others as I normally would.I'm going to start by listing feelings:

1. Scared
2. Anxious
3. Empty
4. Tired

1. Scared-
I'm getting closer and closer to graduation, without having a clue in the world as to what happens next. What's worst is...I don't really ( Read more... )