fuck. i have been such a fucking wreck lately. everything around me hurts. the air feels like it weighs a hundred pounds and my future seems like inevitable sharp spikes at the bottom of a yawning chasm. not to sound melodramatic, but there is something fucking wrong with me. i feel like my brain is wired all wrong but my mom just gives me a hug ( Read more... )

i've just been so fekkin stressed lately. just like the past 48 hours i keep randomly panicking about stupid little things. everything keeps freaking me out and even if there's nothing to freak out about (like right now) i do anyway (like right now). i really hope this weekend's fun.

almost missed my bio exam today. thought it was H block, but ( Read more... )

carly decoursey makes my life worth living. she slept over last night. we rented superbad and bought mango wafers and coconut soda in the international foods isle of A&P. We sat and ate our feast (with raisins and cheese) and watched superbad and laughed and were in love with michael cera. we went to bed early because we were falling asleep on the ( Read more... )

anyone wanna see juno this weekend?

christmas was good. i ended up getting a lot of smaller presents instead of any big ones. i got new clothes, some sewing stuff i desperately needed, a bijillion dollars in itunes cards, a book of poetry by ani d, a pocket watch (i'm starting a new trend along with mr. klimas), and a bunch of other little stuff like earrings and new sunglasses. i'm ( Read more... )

i am having a fucking mental breakdown and he is not picking up his phone. why isn't he picking up his phone? i can't call his house- it's christmas eve. he's prolly doing family stuff. that's probably all it is.

this whole vacation has been totally awkward so far and i keep thinking of him (not same him in first thing) looking me up and down like ( Read more... )

i feel like i am clinging to this one person and only this one person and they are clinging to me only to me and we are drowning in an ocean that is as big as the sky and as stormy as the color of my eyes if i stare into a mirror long enough that i start to convince myself they are sort of hazel. we are awash in a flood of confusion and conflicting ( Read more... )

life's been feeling a little on the wacky side lately but i feel (hope) it's starting to plateau once again to wonderful normalcy.

i might lease a horse at the stable and i'm going to try katie's new horse today. i'm pretty sure once i start riding regularly again i will be so much more happy than i've been lately.

i've been finding time to do ( Read more... )

woah.

what's my strange obsession with america's next top model (aside from the fact tyra banks is one of my role models)? seriously. i have no desire to go into fashion, really. i think it's really fascinating. maybe it's that i will never look good in pictures like them and i will never be beautiful like them. but who knows.

i friggin hate pms. my mom ( Read more... )