i'd forgotten how much i like The Fray. i heard one of their songs on the radio and found myself motivated to digging up the CD. i heard the notes and listened to the words and isn't it funny when suddenly all the lyrics in all the music is you. there's something vindicating about hearing a song that seems to be written about your life. there's ( Read more... )

so life's been a little wacky lately but it's been okay because i haven't had time to think about it anyway.

so yesterday jess' mom calls me and was like "oh by the way we're not going to keep him at CWS anymore" and i'm like "oh okay" and she keeps talking and talking and talking and i'm like "so does this mean i'm not going to ride him anymore?" ( Read more... )

the pieces are finally all starting to fall into place. it's taken me so long, but i'm finally starting to find where i fit into things, where i don't fit into things, and where other people fit into things with me.

SHS trash clean up was actually amazing. if a trash clean up can be amazing. i love my friends. and i love falls in new england. and ( Read more... )

so things have been pretty crazy lately.

pms is wrecking my life. i'm convinced that's what makes me so depressed. i told my mom there was a medication for it. she said don't pump yourself up with hormones before you need it. i said hormones are steroids and i pump myself up with those everytime i go running. she said, your inhaler? i said uh-huh.

i ( Read more... )

right now i'm a little hurt by the hypocrisy.
and i'm feeling a little broken
by things revisted
that should never ever be revisited
by the things that were the hub of the breakdown
last time
the really really bad one
and i'm sitting here watching the travel channel of all the cool places i will never see.

what the hell. why do i run? what the hell possessed me to ever want to run?!?! my race today BLEW. FUCKING BLEW. i was doing so good and i was at least in the middle of the pack when i get these massive cramps (even though i had already taken 2x amount of ibuprofen) and i started crying and had to sit down. poor marc and dave didn't know what to ( Read more... )

why do i feel the need to write again? it's not like i'm going to able to say what i really want to. aside from the fact that i am a wreck. a big, horrible, ugly, train wreck of a girl with no direction and no hope. i hate drama. i am slowly becoming angry with everyone i know. i'm considering life as a hermit out in the woods. in fact i can't ( Read more... )

i am such a fucking wreck.

if it hadn't been the durham fair and if it hadn't been for a few select people, this would have been the worst weekend in my life.

so if i'm crying in school, pretend you don't see me.

i'm not gonna lie, i've been having a really really tough time staying up-beat around everyone lately.

today sucked. i watched three movies in school. my picture's probably horribly fugly. i didn't get trig. i tried. i really couldn't. i started drawing and couldn't focus. spanish killed me. then bio i couldn't sit still. i kept squirming and i ( Read more... )

I am trying to figure out why people don't actually like me and just fake it.

So leave a comment telling me what you don't like about me.

I am trying to fix it.

Thank you.