well in 5 days ill be 18 finally. im soo excited. :) i wasnt but the closer it gets the more excited i get. me and meg are going to columbus on the 26th to go clubbing and party in our 18th birthdays. im also going to go to the lions den because i can. :) well i guess that im out like a fat girl in a beauty pageant. :) lol love ya!

well i really really like brad. its weird being with someone who treats me so good. i cant even explain what it is between us but its... awsome. like when we are together everything else seems irrelevant. im really happy. my mom even noticed that im happier. maybe ill get to spend some time with him on my b day. :) ill finally be 18!

i have officially decided that i hate growing up. everything gets more complicated. dan and i split up which is really hard because he has always been my best friend and i love him so much. i just couldnt stand his sister and molly and everyone else playing their coniving bitchy little games. they had been trying to split us up since we got ( Read more... )

so much has happend since i have last wrote. i started a new relationship with long time friend dan rose. everything was fine until he popped the question. i feel like everything went down hill from there. i wish that we could just back up to when things were simple. we talked on the phone and when he was home we went out and had fun. now there is ( Read more... )

Gracie Elizabeth is 10 months old today. its bitter-sweet. thats really all there is to say about it.

i work tonight and tomorrow but i will be off of work by nine if anyone wants to do something call me at home or at work. 453-2323 (work#) one of us seaters will answer the phone sodont hesitate to call. love you!

sometimes i really dont know what i would do without my friends. this year i have really found out who my real friends are. those that no matter what we always end up together again. shockingly i found out that someone who i previously thought was a great friend really isnt. but you live and you learn i guess. senior year so far is a total blast! ( Read more... )

today is an awful day. i woke up in an awful mood. ive been really depressed lately. im not even sure why. the smallest thing makes me break down and cry. i made a huge mistake giving gracie up for adoption and i have to live with that every day for the rest of my life. i know that she is taken care of but NO ONE will ever love her like i do. shes ( Read more... )

a new chapter is about to begin. we are all about to leave the comfort zone of high school. or prison depending on the day i guess. isnt it exciting? kinda scary though huh? im almost 18. an adult. its so crazy. i feel like there is so much that i didnt do in this quickly ending chapter of my life. i did a lot. i made even more mistakes. but i also ( Read more... )

so much has happend in such a short time. yesterday i was talkin to my mom about going out to meet my dad next summer and he called last night! out of no where. he hasnt called me since i was umm... 10 or 12. it was crazy. he apologized but hes done that before. i have decided to give it one more try. try to get to know my dad. i dont want to look ( Read more... )