This always happens in cycles ( Read more... )

My boyfriend has lost over 80, maybe closer to 100 pounds in the past year. I am insanly jealous. I feel like soon he'll realize how good he looks and dump me cause i'm....less then perfect to say the least. Im rejoining the gym today, and buying a tanning package. I love my bofriend, and no one is taking him from me. This is rediculous, why should ( Read more... )

I started moaning at my boyfriend today about how much he eats *slaps self*. Only the other day I was posting about how I felt partly responsible for my sister and my friend developing eating disorders.... my boyfriend is overweight but that's up to him. I love him the way he is - cheesy but true I'm afraid. What the fuck's the matter with me?! I' ( Read more... )

Does anyone here own a fitday journal and want to share the link with me?

I find reading other people’s fitday journals very thinspiring.

Here’s mine:

http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/PublicJournals.html?Owner=catatonic

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what is the deal with sudafed? does anyone know ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in forever ( Read more... )

so i have gained 18lbs since Aug **goes and slits wrists** and well.. I fell ever so nasty.

but I have a goal. 20lbs by January.

the whole work full time and school full time is death.. and it's a fatting death.

:/

I've been spending alot of time with the guy I like lately. It's weird though instead of making me feel very conscious about my body like most crushes do, this guy makes me feel completly comfortable in myself. I don't know what it is about him that does this, and it scares me. Last night he invited me over to watch a movie. I ate popcorn, cinimon ( Read more... )

recovery = horrible ( Read more... )

It's been awhile, but I gained a few pounds. *hangs my head* 7 of them! Vacation from work made me lazy and neglectful. I'm back on the diet pills after 3 months of being without. Hopefully I'll be back to 130 in a week or 2. Wish me luck, and I'll write back as soon as I can get back to mom's to use her computer. Sadly, I don't have one of my ( Read more... )