Initially yesterday began as seeming fairly uneventful, despite the fact that my phone spontaneously died and picked up nothing but dead air. Braving the merciless humidity, I ventured out to the public library and returned a few overdue materials, in the process snagging a few more movies to watch while also getting a Blur album and a Jimmy Eat ( Read more... )

Just finished watching the film Elephant, which is a motion picture depicting a seemingly average day leading up to a school shooting, it's incredulous how normal everything is right up until the event, the director was very keen at making you feel like something that horrible could take place on a day just like any other. Recently I also watched ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think my mind is at it's sharpest when i'm tired. Peculiar, but it's almost as if when my mind is tired and straining to process thought, somehow it makes it easier to concentrate. This would explain why I create most of my entries at ungodly hours of the night. Fortunately, my comrades parents don't really seem to harbor anything ( Read more... )

Fuck. Why am I not happy? These conflicting emotions are really starting to wear me down. My mind is constantly in strife, nothing is certain, and this frustration is getting the better of me. I've been dealing with depression since I was young, i've taken antidepressants, and i've gone through therapy. I don't care if i'm still depressed, none ( Read more... )

My sense of prioritization served me well; an accumulation of stress resulted in me deciding to stay up all night the night prior to taking my exam to receive my drivers license. Spending the morning doing my very best to relax and gather my bearings whilst concentrating on easing my nerves, I drove to the DMV while my comrades father almost ( Read more... )

Oddly enough, an abundance of occurrences have happened since i've last updated, I just haven't been inspired to write. Memorial Day my mother and I spent the day with my comrade's family for dinner, initially we were all going to have a picnic, but the weather was a tad too brisk. My comrade's mother having set out a table of appetizers, my ( Read more... )

Hnnh, well.. the way I see it, I could either lament of heartache, or take it in stride and absorb the blows like a trooper. It may not lessen the impact, but there's no sense in making it any worse for myself. As my compeer Nick would say, it's a double-edged sword. Strangely coincidental, sometimes it seems like whenever i'm having ( Read more... )

I really need to vent right now. Ordinarily whenever something gets on my nerves or under my skin, habitually I bottle it up inside my mind and sort of take it in stride, however when the accumulation becomes too great, the bottle bursts, creating a mess.. right now I feel like i'm about to burst. I wish there was someone to talk to, but ( Read more... )

Relatively heartened by the start of the week, since returning from Chicago my relationship with my mother has seemed a tad more awkward, however i'm sure it will pass. I've taken up on the generous offer of my comrade's father to aid me in gaining experience behind the wheel, hopefully i'll be acquiring my license soon, although who knows just ( Read more... )

Yesterday my comrade Ian and I set out on an unexpected odyssey of uncertainty. Initial agenda was for the originals to gather and conjure an ending to the measly independent Spaghetti-Western film we began Saturday, however in my disheveled state as I shuffled downstairs to greet my comrade rapping at the front door, my demeanor went through a ( Read more... )