i never never want to go home

[proteinjello]

i got a letter from bailey today. she said she wrote to apologize for all of the stupid shit that went down last sunday. i wrote her back immeadiately, saying that she has nothing to apologzie for. she really doesnt. its not like shes ever hurt me. it made everything worse, because of all the nasty things i said about her. why do i need to

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[styleless]

that's the way it feels a lot of the time, alz. bailey wrote you. she shouldn't feel guilty and neither should you. we all got caught up in the bullshit drama too and it's because it's easier to focus on outside things going wrong than the desperate panic or sadness lurking underneath us. because it is lurking and it does lurk but sometimes it all melts away into smoke, baby. and it's friends like you that make it do that, it's thinking "it happens" and realizing that flaws don't make you a bad human, they're grooves to hold on to.
you are so beautiful and you mean so, so much to me. you know that you're the one person i wanted that night under the blanket with me because you know and you showed me that "it happens" and it will happen but there are so many wonderful magical things floating around us that shutting them out is a crime and no matter how much you want to throw yourself at something, anything, sadness or drugs or pity or self-disgust, just concentrate on the fact that there is a girl typing at her computer loving you.

[annameans]

just think what would happen if you had nubs for eyes. or if all the employees at the chinese resturant werent allowed to walk but instead they had to do an irish jig to get anywhere. or if bisi adeleki snuck into your room one night with his african dancers and began to play the talking drum. ali, i want you to ask yourself two questions. a) can a drum talk? b) can a drum sing? FUCK YES. and that is why you are beautiful.

[popeholden]

i offer you the words of men wiser than myself:

"Life is a disease; and the only difference between one man and another is the stage of the disease at which he lives" - George Bernard Shaw

"Oh, isn't life a terrible thing, thank God?" - Dylan Thomas

[popeholden]

Wow, very uplifting quotes, Rob. Ali, you are no more or less worthwhile than anyone else. However, I guess the way in which you distinguish people is by looking at their actions. Everyone has the potential to do very great things. Beethoven, Ben Franklin, Gandhi, Einstein, the list goes on an on; these men were no exceptions to the norm of humanity, except in their actions. They made their lives worth having lived. Can we say that for most people who have died? No. But that their own fault. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's up to you whether or not your life is worth living.
Kelly

[popeholden]

that was sarcasm, wasn't it? they seemed uplifting to me, anyway. my apologies, ali.

[popeholden]

At any rate, your life is worth living, Ali.

-Jace