So its time to try that therapy appointment again! Anna is much less nervous this time, though I bet she has some quiet butterflies... I am pretty excited myself, and a bit anxious. I am afraid Anna and the therapist might not mesh well. I know from being in therapy myself, and from having a mother who is a therapist, that it is not rare to have to ( Read more... )

Everyone in my immediate family knows that Anna may transition, and that I support her in it and want to "make a go" of it. Everyone is supportive. My stepmother made the most negative comment yet, which was "we just want to make sure you are doing what is best for you and makes you happy." I know, positively dreadful, yes? [sarcasm again] My ( Read more... )

Anna was practically frantic yesterday before I took her to the therapist. She admitted that she hardly slept a wink the night before, and had been sweating and nervous all day. By the time we left to head downtown she had worked herself into quite a state! Then we were a little late getting there, so I dropped her off while I went to find parking ( Read more... )

Though Anna, in many ways, is a confident person, she is also in many ways very shy. Insecure is probably a better word. She is an interesting mix of the two... Her insecurities drive me crazy because she is such an incredibly intelligent, witty, strong, and kind person with absolutely no reason to look down on herself... but I digress! My point ( Read more... )

Things have been better... sort of. Anna apologized for being "bitchy" lately, and I was so grateful to know that she had noticed that I teared up a bit (damn, I used to not think I was emotional!). I have found that when I am depressed I have a hard time remembering that I have ever been happy even though I have been more happy than sad these last ( Read more... )

Anna has so many problems, most of them to do with her health. She probably has diabetes, but hates doctors and needles and so she doesnt want to find out. Her father died of a heart attack at age 38, and she has already had one, but she refuses to go in for regular check-ups. Her family thinks she doesnt have health insurance, but she does. She ( Read more... )

So Anna has been sick and depressed since Friday. Nothing adds to a severe case of the blues like a severe case of the flu, right? Its been lots of fun (sarcasm doesnt translate too well over the internet, does it?). But things are slowly returning to a state of normalcy, or what passes for it in my life anyway ( Read more... )

Every fiber of my body is aching for a kiss, a touch on the shoulder, a smile, anything! Anna is perpetually distant. I touch her but I get no response, I hold her and she is like stone, cold and unyielding. I speak to her and she mumbles meaninglessly.

I have been through this before, but instead of getting easier it seems to be getting harder.-

because I have so much to get done today. I finally decided to stop playing nice with the ex. Yes, I know, I ended the relationship, but I did not do it just to piss him off... as everything he does now is specifically aimed at pissing me off. Said he couldnt believe I would leave him for a "girly man." LOL! He apparently thinks the girly part is ( Read more... )

I told Anna, sort of unintentionally, that I have a private blog. I wanted to share with her some of the insights I have gotten from all of you who have been so helpful, and kind of had to tell where the info came from... And she is a bit upset that I dont want her to read it ( Read more... )