I feel caught between letting go and pursuing feverishly. all of this seems like so long ago (maybe a week?) that its fading like a dream... a lot like the dream I had last night. last night's dream leaves me feeling obsessive and foolish- let it go, Malia, let it go ( Read more... )

so, fuck, I'm depressed this morning ( Read more... )

I think that our problem lies in the belief that "wrong" or "bad" actually exists at all. I believe we all base our opinions off of our perceptions of the world around us, but our current perceptions all stem from the position of 'us vs. them'. as soon as we begin that opinion we need to believe "we" are right and "they" are wrong; they being 'the ( Read more... )

fuck. so, no, I'm still doing good... but I feel myself getting caught up in a pipe dream. its like a drug. you get it, you want more, you get more, you want more. it takes away your problems and makes you feel perfect. the longer you go without it, the less your craving but if you get it again you are right back in the cycle. I'm not getting into ( Read more... )

wow... life.
I am still doing well, in fact, better than before... (I think I'm going for the record!)
tomorrow is Sonoma County's gay pride parade... I am excited about watching hot chicks. also, Jessi and her sort-of girlfriend are coming to visit... we can all watch hot chick together. rawk. (<-- hahah! rawk... Im such a dork ( Read more... )

so, I figured it out. art is another word for creativity... or more specifically, people who are creative are identified as artists. that is why good scientists and mathematicians fit into the category of artist as opposed to some dry business or something... their work is creative. by creativity I mean it is innovative. according to Webster's ( Read more... )

I put into my body
yesterday:
half of a pesto bagel
a 12oz cup of chai tea
an 8oz cup of coffee
half of a vegetarian taco
horrible blue chemical candy (about the equivalent of one package)
a peach
approximately a cup of chips
some water (I don't remember how much)

today:6 cups of water (and counting ( Read more... )

hello ( Read more... )

wooh.

I seem to be doing well.
I had my last final on Thursday, I got an A in the class... my other grades haven't been reported yet. I am so so SO glad school is over... I feel free.I enjoy my job ( Read more... )

gah, what a lame day ( Read more... )