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Let it go????
I met a guy. He's a few years older. Name is Victor. I feel like it was fate that introduced us. I met him one night not knowing I could care for someone so much in a matter of minutes. I got the same feeling like when I first met Eli. Haven't felt like that in years!
Victor and I never exchanged info that night. Didn't even know each others names ( Read more... ) -
Just my luck!
I just got off the phone with a really good friend. Recently I got a job for a company called Redflex. After about 5 months I got my friend a job there as well. I worked really hard and honestly for this company for 6 months. I feel i was treated unfairly there. I was let go after the 6th month because i could not keep up with the impossible quotas ( Read more... ) -
End of chapter "RC Kret"
*SIIIGGHHHH* Where do I begin? I've been doing ok. Still not working. But living the fun life ( Read more... ) -
Crushing on him....
So recently I became friends with a group that is fun and have been through a long relationship like I have. We give each other support, love and trust. We are in each others lives for a reason I believe ( Read more... ) -
Taking It Day By Day....
Its been six months now since mom's been gone. I have good days and bad days. And mostly bad nights. I feel like the more i go out and party the less i have to think about it. But im not drinking a lot like i was before. That part cut way down. I'm just goin out, planning things so that i'm not constantly sitting in my room crying about her. I've ( Read more... ) -
"Leave Out All The Rest"
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
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Good Bye Mom...
Its been 4 months now since mom passed. And i've been telling myself to get on here and finally write about it. Just haven't had the strength to do it. I cry for her all the time. And I have it in my head that she still lives in the nursing home so she's ok. It brings me peace. And I know this is weird, but I feel like she didnt pass this year. I ( Read more... ) -
What a difference a year makes
Wow!!! Almost a whole year since i have been on here. i need to post more in this journal than on facebook. :) Well..where do i start. Oh I know where. Right where i left off duh. So my brothers girlfriend and i didnt speak for like 4 months. We lived together but avoided each other at all cost. We made up and are cool now. but i still ( Read more... ) -
Holding Back!
So a couple days ago my younger brothers girlfriend was throwing a fit and yelling at him. She went into a jealous rage over nothing at all. It didn't help that she was drinking as usual. But she brought the argument out to the living room. My brother was quiet and just trying to calm her down and shield their son from it. I got mad and ( Read more... ) -
Feelin Lonely :(
I have tried a couple times to reach out but no response. No one understands what i'm going through. I sacrificed my family for him. And in the end my mom suffered, I lost him, and I lost a good chunk of my life. Important years are gone that I will never get back. So how do I move on? How do I move forward? On top of that I lost my job at ( Read more... )