Again I had to have a conversation with Christina about not talking for awhile. It felt like we broke up again, but this time in a less pain full way. Of course its for the best. If we can't have a conversation without crying, then we can't talk to each other. I can't wait for the day that we can talk like friends instead of ex's.

Tonight I got ( Read more... )

I had a good 2k row with my varsity 8. We are starting to look and feel real good ( Read more... )

I didn't sleep that much last night, but managed to have a decent water practice ( Read more... )

What a weird day. I had crew, great 2k. Ate breakfast. Talked to my adviser and felt much better about my thesis work, or lack there of ( Read more... )

I finally got my old cell phone turned off and called Amtrak about the double charge. I also made an appointment with a dentist. It felt good to get a lot of my life taken care of today ( Read more... )

Lately, I've been very irritated. I'm not sure if it's because I finally changed my meds or if I'm just changing. I know I really need to have sex. I'm going quite stir crazy. But my interest in women is waning fast. I'll be interested in someone and then they'll say or do something I don't like and I'm totally over them ( Read more... )

Christina and I are now not talking. Its mutual but still hurts. Us trying to be friends right off the bat was a huge mistake. I'm still in love with her and us acting like friends does not help the situation. She's in a lot of pain as well and our original break up has appeared to leave her in a sad state as well ( Read more... )

We hadn't seen each other in a week. It feels much longer. We talk in some fashion everyday, be it phone calls or text messages. Yet all this friendly-ness has not yet led us to friends. We are still in this awkward place ( Read more... )

Turns out my sister can't help me with my financial bind. She had to take care of herself. I don't blame her. I'll end up on my feet I always do. But I gotta be real and say that it does suck that I can't rely on her for this.  

So Christina and I are no more. We broke up, got back together, then she broke up with me again. What can I do? I still love her. She still loves me. Of course we are friends and are trying to work through the awkwardness ( Read more... )