I'm feeling a bit stifled. Every time things go well there is a set back. Although minor it plagues me to no end. Why do I get so hurt by it? I just wish it was more direct. I'm tired and all I want is to rest in my pseudo-home, but alas I'm asked to politely vacate the premises for just a few hours. It wouldn't be a problem if I hadn't been up ( Read more... )

Life is mkay. I've been working for the past week, which is nice. I missed having responsibilities. Unfortunately, today is my last day for scheduled work. I'm not going home though, so now I'm back to a boring break until school starts ( Read more... )

Things that are to come:

Dec 16-Dec 20 Staying with my girlfriend until my house sitting job starts. This will be a nice new challenge for our relationship.

Dec 20 Girlfriend and I are going to Sacramento to meet the family, another new step for us.

Dec 20-Jan 8 I will be moving into my house sitting job. I wont have a job, so people call me!!!

Dec 25 ( Read more... )

Today so far has been emotional. I seem to be making mistakes. So I thought I'd reflect on the good things in life.

Things I miss about Sacramento

The Heat
Flooding
WNBA (Monarchs)
Thai Basil (Gang Gri Gai with Kow Paw and prawns)
Butch n Nellies (Mexican Hot Chocolate)
Faces ($10 nites)
Country Club Lanes (Glow Bowl)
Family (Wynell, Deion, Marshall, LiRone ( Read more... )

So I got in! Its very exciting, except for one problem. I may not qualify because of my non-traditional year of eligibility.

I really wanted to go, this could have such a great impact on my life. But there will be other things I'm sure. What a great opportunity at the tips of my fingers...

My sweetie is so great, so encouraging. And she finished her ( Read more... )

 I'm super irritated by people in my life who don't take responsibility for their own shit. I'm left to pick up the fucking slack. I should have seen this coming knowing the history, but I has faith in that person(s). I know now. People amaze me for their lack of respect for other people's welfare (in this case welfare being their grade in the ( Read more... )

Productive: yes
Friendship: yes
Clarity: yes
Loving: yes, and it's not as bad as I thought it might be.

All this fear and it turns out life is rather good ( Read more... )

Life is on track as far as the outside is concerned. I'm 'passing' all my classes, almost done with the Crew season and things are going great there. Even my finances are stable, but of course something has to place a hiccup in my happiness.

It's funny how I'm the strongest I've ever been physically, but emotionally I've been through the ringer. My ( Read more... )

 I'm Back Bitches! JK. I haven't been on here in a looooong time. But maybe I'll make more use of it now that Tara says that I should. We'll see.