So, another night. Fun. I have nothing to do for the next week until I start work again and since I'm not taking my sleeping medications I slept maybe a couple of hours last night. Wheee! I am not in a good mood, especially considering that I just got signed up to pick up my sister tonight and "have a good time" with her. I'm sure we'll have a ( Read more... )

Not much exciting happening around here. I've been painting my room. A nice dark red color to bring the walls in a bit. It's such a huge fucking room that I need it to be a little more cozy. I was reading a friends post about the praise we give our children and how it affects them. I tells ya, this is getting rediculous. Is there even a right ( Read more... )

Okay, so I know I haven't posted in a while and I can't really say I have a good excuse, but I'm posting now, so blah. Both nothing and lots has happened, which doesn't really make sense unless you're me. My medication is pretty much where it should be now in terms of paranoia, psychosis and depression, but sleep is still a problem. It'll be a ( Read more... )

Another boring day off. Of course, my day off is supposed to be tuesday, but I was nice and let them switch it for today. I've done the usual day off activities, grocery shopping and the like, but now I've got nothing to do and am rather bored. I just finished watching a "Miss Marple" mystery that my mum let me borrow and I'm not quite sure what ( Read more... )

Bored, bored, bored. I feel so lazy on nights like this. Not that there's really anything to do. I've been trying to get back into the habit of rollerblading, but there seem to be certain drawbacks to it. First of all, it means driving to my parents house before or after work all the time. I'm sure neither they nor I enjoy that very much. ( Read more... )

I'm wicked stressed out right now, so I'm hoping I can work some things out here. Technically speaking, I should be in bed right now since I have to be up at 5 in the morning, but tonight I'll let it slide. I went out yesterday with my sister and it was awful. I enjoyed shopping, seeing a couple of friends and all, but being in a social ( Read more... )

Yay! I'm posting! Why? Because I'm bored! Yay! Couple of friends came over last night, helped put plastic on some of the windows. Well, I didn't do much. I never noticed before how much air came through the window by my art supplies until now. That fuckin' plastic is moving like crazy. Maybe I have ghosts. Nifty. I'm working until 9 tonight ( Read more... )

Tonight I can't tell if I'm depressed or just frustrated. For the past few weeks I've been trying to deal with the reality that's been my life. You'd think I'd be fine by now, but it still, well, it sorta haunts me. I've had to look back on some of the things I've done and the situations I've been in and see it in a different light. I wonder ( Read more... )

Okay, it's official. I am in love with pumpkin spice coffee. Absolutely fabulous. Anyways, on to more important matters. Now that I'm on a decent dose of anti-psychotics my life has been dramatically different. Not from the outside necessarily, but definetly from the inside. It used to be that my life was controlled almost completely by my ( Read more... )

1:15 and I can't sleep again. Yesterday was such a high-stress day that even my new meds couldn't absorb it all. My hands are already starting to get rough and calloused from work again. They're getting dry too. My hands get so dry during the winter that, if I don't properly lubricate them, the skin cracked and becomes pink and irritated. I'll ( Read more... )