does it ever get any easier? will this pain that i feel ever go away? this day was sucky also.. had to clean my apartment last night and de-flea it...it is still not de-fleaed, should be by tomorrow or the next day the landlord said. man, he is such a fucking prick... he was all like i saw you getting rid of the cats, i was like do you have it on ( Read more... )

well, i went to work today and was there until about 11 am... my sister calls me and tells me the babies are sick and she comes in and covers my shift for me... so, i sprint to my mom's house to check on them and called my friend to take me and them to the hospital... that is the most boring fucking place!!!! i hate the hospital, it was almost as ( Read more... )

i have a job now, gotta get up at 5:15 am every day now. Life is good I suppose. Life is what you make it when it all comes down to it. I slept 2 hours last night and now my contacts are really fucking blurry. I should be sleeping right now but i can't. i can't stop thinking. my mind just will not shut off. i wish it would. there are so many things ( Read more... )

i have so much to say and don't really know how to go about it, so here goes... i know no one on here reads this anyway..well, practically no one... i feel in my heart that i've made a terrible mistake, but he did also. i know i did the right thing, but my heart just isn't in it. i'm trying to forget about him and concentrate on the other guy. and ( Read more... )

well, jolly pirates hasn't called me yet, but i'm sure they will... some weird person wrote me, i hope they don't do it again. been trying to spend a lot of time with the babies so thas working out. they are both trying to walk, it's very sweet. i love my babies and everyone that meets them does also... wanted to see my hobbits this weekend, that ( Read more... )

well, my interview went well...i think i might get the job. that would be cool. cannot for the life of me get ahold of brit. where the fuck is she? i have court thursday, so that should be fun...yeah... i'm gonna go...peace out and love to everyone!

Thought about Brandon for a min cause I heard he is with someone. Good for them. i hope eventually she finds out what kind of person he is just like i did. i just hope it doesn't take her as long as it did me. lol i got an interview at jolly pirate's tomorrow so wish me luck!!!! Babies go into day care in a few days. I might not be living where i ( Read more... )

That it is! The past two weeks have been awesome... It was rough for like a min and then everything was cool. I made some new friends, became much more social than in the past and got a little somethin somethin goin on. lol What the fuck do I see in these Aquarians anyway? I am so extremely attracted to them and they just fuck with my head. God ( Read more... )

i feel like such a fucking mess and i can't help it. i've just received word that there is a girl over there. now, it has barely been a week since we broke up out of a FUCKING TWO YEAR RELATIONSHIP which i guess meant absolutely nothing to him. it couldn't. he must've already had a back-up plan. i thought he was supposed to mourn me. he said he ( Read more... )

have you ever had that feeling like you shoulda thought something through a bit more. life isn't always easy. thas for damn sure. no one helps you the way they say that they would. people can talk so much great shit that they will do, but when it comes down to it, you're alone and that is the harsh reality of life. someone once tried to teach me ( Read more... )