I've been so stressed and upset lately. One reason is because of my computer situation, another because of just the way things are going. There's nothing even THAT terrible going on, but I'm just sick of things not being that great. Like, every day is "just alright". I want to have a good day ( Read more... )

Why does my life have to be so horrible right now? If it's not one thing, it just has to be another.

I want to believe in God but not when everything good in my life is being taken from me.

This isn't fair.
I don't deserve this.

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The stabbing pain that once resided in my stomach is now a weight ( Read more... )

I feel like I haven't updated in a while, but I honestly don't know what to say anymore ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of being dragged on or underestimated or criticized.
I think people waste too much time waiting around.
I can honestly admit that I waste time waiting.
If something is going to happen, why can't it happen now?
If you like someone, tell them.
If you don't, let them know.

Cut those stupid strings or make them stronger,
don't let them fray and ( Read more... )

I was in California. Sitting outside at a table with a bunch of guys.
I knew who they all were. I knew one of them was Chris. the rest of them were his band.
he didn't recognize me, he didn't see me.
I send him a text "where are you? I'm here"
and he responded that he didn't believe me so to meet him downstairs
I went downstairs, it was a little ( Read more... )

 So, pretty intense weekend. Engagement/wedding planning dinner with my brother and his fiancee on Friday night. Then went out and saw some friends. Slept in Saturday, parents had left for Tucson. Hung around the house all day, did laundry, got Chipotle with some friends, hung out with Daniel for a while, went to the Fair's and hung out with more ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of these late nights.
Just sitting on the floor with my head in my hands,
or curled up in a ball on my bed wishing I could sleep.
The one person I need to talk to
seems like the only person who won't listen.

The last bed I slept in,
besides my own at home and in my dorm,
was his.
I never want that to change.

I wish I had another form of release,
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I can't rid of this feeling of a twisted knot inside my mind and heart.
I can't shake the feeling of constant loneliness.
It's like.. everything -post is "just alright"
but not quite the same.

None of my words even seem to make sense anymore.
No one knows what I'm talking about but me.
That never happens, ever.

I'm usually so good with translating ( Read more... )

Short term memory loss.
I always knew I had it... but I also knew I had a fantastic long term memory.
How does that work?
How can I remember this one time at Disneyland when I was 8,
but I can't even remember what I did two days ago? 
It's finally starting to come together.

The longer time passes, the more details I remember.

Remember when I was with ( Read more... )