i wish I could run into the field and scream until i break down into the tears that i have been tryin to hide. Instead i sit awake bc i am afraid to stop moving, afraid to go back to where i was before i went to work. how much i wanted to just let it all stop. once again work saved me from fallin into a hole...now i am back...alone once again ( Read more... )

I want to go lie down on my bed and cry. screw work, screw school. i want it to end. just all be over. i want my life back. i want my memories to be normal not of little girls dying and people leaving. what is the point of getting to kno ppl or loving someone when all they do is leave and break your heart. not only once but every time u remember ( Read more... )

Why is it that as soon as i am single all the boys come out of the woodworks? I seem to not be able to get any work done...i hate this. atleast when i had a boyfriend i could just say that i had homework to do. now i actually am willing to not do work and just talk to people. i mean that kinda says that i should not have still been in that ( Read more... )

I must say it has its advantages...it is amazing how many ppl come out of the woodwork. idk. i like being on my own again. i can be strong again. that girl who didnt need anyone to help her up or kno why she was cryin. i can do this and i will. i have to. alone.

I need some advice. Every time i am home i drive by harry's house. I want really badly to stop and see his parents but it is rare that his parents are home and he is not...i think it is weird that i see his parents anyway but even more so if he is home. i dont kno how he would feel and honestly how i would. but does the fact that we broke up mean ( Read more... )

sometimes you have to pick yourself back up...no one can put the pieces back together, but you. A great assignment, write about a moment when something you believed in was proved wrong. Great examples are Santa or the tooth fairy...these things that children struggle to understand or accept. The real lesson is that no one is invincible...we all ( Read more... )

I miss her. a lot. i wish i could talk to her. she would laugh at me but then i would laugh too and it would be fine. she would be so proud of how i have changed ( Read more... )

well im single. imagine that. a whole year and then done. im quite confused but then im not which is confusing in itself. I should have known this would have happened. i went away to school. a relationship build on sex or physical reasons cannot sustain that. sorry it seems like my opinion all along seems to have been true. His dad called me. he ( Read more... )

Wow. I wish i could everything that i feel and think, but i cant. the other night i cried while i tried to write a paper until 4 30 am. no one here knows me. i like it but then sometimes i dont. i cant explain y i feel the way i do. Idk. i seem to not care. good bye.

Wow. I did it. I left Vineland. So weird. I thought it would help me, it did. kind of. I still miss her. I still remember her. I still of how she will never get to do the things that I do every day. No one else will get to meet her. She will not be turnign 17 or anythign after it. Siometimes I hate him. Sometimes I just want to hit him until I ( Read more... )