i cant remember the last time i smoked. it was probably almost a year ago now. but somehow, i ended up with a upm. because just when i think i finally have my shit together, my life has this funny little way of dropping me face first onto the pavement. always reminding me that being a good person and having good intentions doesnt count for very ( Read more... )

krysta said the saddest thing the other day. she takes in boys like stray dogs. and so do i. then you spend all your time trying to erase their pain, until one day they finally learn what it is to be loved, and then they leave you, the way someone left them. it is probably the truest thing i've ever heard ( Read more... )

watch the fuck out come june 15th.

expect video footage.

today at 730 in the morning it came to me. i finally understand ( Read more... )

going back in my livejournal and reading the things i've written always gets me upset. i really dont know why i do it to myself ( Read more... )

something inside me felt it was necessary to post a livejouranl entry sicne today was my fuckin birthdya. ive passed my point of philosophical triumph and moved into the unescapable truth. didnt poe write drunk? that fucker. i need a moment to recollect my thoughts. forgive me, you royal fucks ( Read more... )

when i was little no one payed attention to me, so i got loud.
when i was little no one showed me any kind of affection, so i hugged strangers.
when i was little everyone asked if i was okay, but no one stuck around for the answer.
and then i grew up, and now its my turn to not give a shit.

because some things never change.

so i'm talking to my dad about my religion in the U.S. class. i tell him how going into this class i'm thinking i'm going to learn about all the different religions, which i'm really excited about because my dad is muslim and my mom is christian. i tell him that im really disappointed though, because the class turns out to be about politics and ( Read more... )

i am a cynical, indignant, callous little girl who never learned the difference between peace and pain.

my head is made up of memories
most of them useless dillusions.