The repercussions of my inability to function quite /normally/ have started to become more apparent in the past little while ( Read more... )

I keep running into this wall. I fucking hate this wall. This is the wall that was made sometime after Eric and before Helix. That partition between me and admitting things ( Read more... )

It's been a while ( Read more... )

Yesterday, i spent twelve hours sitting with Boy. It was all pets and t.v-watching and him showing me pictures of pretty much his entire family. And it was quiet and safe and i feel like total dork for going home because most of me just wanted to stay. He hugged me goodbye and i really, really didn't want to let go. It's completely weird because I' ( Read more... )

This isn't going to make much sense, but i need to document this ( Read more... )

I'm starting to think that desperatly wanting and trying to be fine isn't going to make me any more... well, fine ( Read more... )

So, i'm starting to wonder, again, if there's actually anything wrong with me that just paying attention couldn't fix ( Read more... )

I appear to be very, very depressed ( Read more... )

My brain is full of bugs ( Read more... )

I am terrified about moving forward ( Read more... )