I’m the only one who can help me ( Read more... )

Sometimes, when I wash my face, I want to wash it all away. When I shower, I want to be clean again ... no, I mean really clean. I want to wash away all of the lies, every nasty and bitter thing that the corrupted men in my life have put into my head. Or done to me. Or made me feel. I want to be the me on the inside--the one who isn't afraid ... ( Read more... )

So today I actually got to do something--Diddy & I went to White Noise. It was SO good to see him again. I miss Bentley a lot. Even here in New Hampshire, I just want to be back. I hope this semester goes better than the last, as far as classes go. I can already see it coming, though ... I have an assignment due on Monday. Ahh! Seriously! But yeah ( Read more... )

I talked to Phil today. He always makes me feel so much better. It's like the refresher I need to keep plugging along here. Love is an amazing thing ( Read more... )

So I've lasted this long, but this place is really just starting to eat at me, from the inside out. I hate this place. I wish I didn't, but I do. I miss Phil a lot. Today is 4 months for us. I hope I get to talk to him tonight. I mean, after all, he's the one who got me into the 'anniversary' thing so he should at least call me back. That'd be nice ( Read more... )

Tiny dancer
Golden messenger
Everything is okay
Everything is okay now

Tiny dancer
Golden artist
All this time I doubted
But all this time I knew
I know

Truth
I know
Truth
I apologize

Shameful to doubt
Tiny messenger
Music
.. Truth.

Shameful to doubt
I love you
I am loved.
I know.

So here I am, sitting at my sister's. I have 6 days until I go home. It's kind of a bittersweet thought. I like some things about home, hate other things about it. Whatever. It's going to be hard to be away from Phil for a month. At least he'll have a cell phone tonight. He really does make me happy. It's also really fulfilling to know that other ( Read more... )

YAY! Today was the last day of classes for me. =) (No Monday classes, HA!) Finals could be interesting; hope I do alright. 201 is going to kill me. AHHH ACCOUNTING CAN DIE ( Read more... )

Wow, so I got "Pink Floyd: The Wall" today. I'm soo excited to watch it ... I'm going to wait until this weekend and watch it with Phil, though. It seems so intriguing--I'm thinking about making it a floor program just because it'd be interesting to see what the girls on my floor would think of it ( Read more... )

Well ... I realize that my last few entries have been really depressing. I apologize. No I don't--that's how I felt. I need to stop apologizing for stuff like that. It's me. Deal with it. But anyways ... I'm back to normal now, thankfully. I got really really emotional and felt like I would never get out of it. I'm glad I did though because I feel ( Read more... )