they really dont understand and they really dont care..

whats worse..someone who pushes you and uses you..someone who keeps you around for their own sick pleasures..or someone who doesnt care at all..someone who isnt there..was never there..and will never be tehre?..i'm juss not sure which i think is worse..

i've officially lost everthing that has ever meant anything to me..

..i'm dead

is tomorrow even worth waking up for?..

life throws unexpected things at us sometimes..

usually the shorter the entries and the longer time between them means that i have alot to say..juss dont know how..not really sure if its all worth the effort..i dont even know where to start..

( for a friend.. )

life is kind of a downer right now..

i'm drowning..and no one is here to save me..

i miss gabe..i really do..i wanna call him..but i've randomly called him twice today..so yeah..a 3rd time may seem juss a bit desperate..especially coming from me..but i miss him..i juss wanna talk to him..i wanna see him..

so..i'm a whore!..yeah..