[i've got to find the motivation to get up from the computer.  sitting here is hurting my body.  and i need to find what it is i want to be doing with my body, when i'm up from the computer ( Read more... )

When I was in school, I got teased about the music I liked.  I was already insecure, and I didn't know how to defend myself, or how not to give a fuck.  By the time I was in college, I was afraid of people asking me about music.  I was also afraid of looking like a "poseur," and this also meant I didn't want to "like" something, just because the ( Read more... )

I guess I spring to life in the Spring.  Today is the 10th birthday of this very livejournal!  Happy Birthday, sebastiene! 

but i'm too precious to spoil with a one-night-stand.  that's it.  and i can be intimidating.  even to ariel pink.  yes.  that's it ( Read more... )

i have so much extra stuff in my mouth right now.  I already had a "flipper" (like a retainer, with a couple of false teeth attached), but I've started orthodontic treatment, so now I also have a bunch of metal on my teeth.  To which I have to attach one rubberband (I guess it's really just one side fo my teeth that are effed.)  The same apparatus ( Read more... )

I had the realization that, my relationship inexperience is a positive thing.  While so many have been out there being passed around and used up, I have been preserved and aging in the way of the finest, rarest of wines ( Read more... )

I've got to find my audience.  Surely, you aren't my only audience in my life.  The three or four of you possibly reading this.  I hope you don't take that the wrong way.  You SHOULDN'T be my only audience in life, then you would have to wonder why YOU are paying attention to me, when the rest of the 6,999,999,996-or-so people on Earth, aren't ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night, wherein I was kind of sexually attracted to my 8th grade English teacher.  I wasn't, in real life...  At least, not consciously.  He was young, maybe 23, when he taught me.  Tall, lanky, pale-skinned, dark-haired man, on the awkward/geeky side.  Somebody out there would have found him attractive, though.  But, as a 13-year ( Read more... )

Oh, good, so my folks aren't getting divorced, my mother isn't now the host of a popular talk show, with Amy Poehler guesting this week, preparing for the appearance and staying at my parents' (now just my mother's) house, while I'm visiting, but I'm not allowed to talk to Amy.  It was just another nightmare.  It's actually a new "series," a few ( Read more... )

It's real fun for me, being adopted, oh yeah.  Like, when I had a dream that my maternal biological grandmother died, so I googled her the next day (in real life), and found a kind of informative article, that mentioned from whence in Europe her parents emigrated.  Then, I got to a part that mentioned her "six grandkids."  It's not that I expected ( Read more... )