What does 2006 have in store for me?...only time will tell, but i pray that it is nothing like last year, dong get me wrong last year was a great year, so many great things happened to me, I will always have some amazing memories, so many great times things i will never forget, great things happened in my life last year, but the great things always ( Read more... )

Yeah u know whats funny how very easy it is to be happy when you feel things are going good in your life and so very easy to not when they arnt ( Read more... )

This is a very pointless entry and i know no one reads this anymore but im writing it anyway cuz it somewhat makes me feel better ( Read more... )

It just doesnt feel like the holidays...maybe its because its because im unhappy, maybe its just cuz im alone, i dunno what it is but i just want Christmas to be over...

Why cant i just be happy, where did it go, i know i was happy once. I refused to go to church today with my mom, i know that sounds bad but im not gonna go to church right now since me and him God on the best of terms. I just cant seem to figure myself out. I do not really like being home, because i have nothing here, im bored, and i have to ( Read more... )

Ok so yea my computer is playing random music and what comes up the song "The Promise" by Tracy Chapman. It caught me off guard, i listened to the song, i dont know why cuz i knew after listening to it i would prolly feel like shit and i kinda do. It made me think of Amber, and i dont need to think of Amber besides talking to her online just a ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do anymore, i dont even know who i am anymore, im lost, im feeling alone, but all i can think about anymore is why, why do i feel this way, before i came to college i was happy, i had never been depressed i had never understood depression, i never let things get to me, but maybe thats just cuz i never expierenced life, maybe i ( Read more... )

Ive been wondering lately if my point, my reason for living is to be a failure, this may not be true but im unable to feel otherwise anymore. Im so sick of this feeling i cant stand it, but i cant change it either. Ive wanted so hard to be happy, but all my brain does is run with negative ideals, i begin to realize im alone, i begin to feel alone ( Read more... )

Well i fucked up once and now ive fucked up again, and the problem is im losing it, I really dont care anymore, im giving up i dont wanna die or anything but i dont really care if i live, im not really even sure what i have to live for, It kills so much, so so much to know how much of a disapointment i really am, its funny how i never use to ( Read more... )

I have to say im tired of being the guy that is always happy for other people, always wishing everyone the best, always hoping everyone i know gets the best, deserves the best, even people i dont like or have reasons not to like i still wish them true happiness, i cant help it, i want out, but im tired of being that guy cuz being that guy means ( Read more... )