At Least I Remember, I Love You - Part Three
Title: At Least I Remember, I Love You
Translator: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: PG
Fandom: JE
Genre: AU, Romance
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo x Kamenashi Kazuya
Warnings: BL/Shounen-ai. Unbeta-ed
Part One | Part Two
At Least I Remember, I Love You
By Zheung Yuu
Translated by Shattered Tenshi
Chapter Three
What exactly are emotions? Why is it that when I look at you, my heart would naturally beat faster?
That familiar pair of pale feet were moving on the floor again. Ryo sat on the couch, his fingers tapping the couch in a rhythm as he peered his eyes watching Kamenashi dancing around. The radio had just played a song and when Kamenashi heard it, he started to dance around excitedly, spinning in circles as he danced in front of Ryo. Kamenashi wore a smile that was as bright as sunflower. His gaze stopped on Ryo's face for second, then went up to tug on Ryo's hand, saying excitedly, "Ryo, before every time we hear this song, we would both start dancing excitedly!"
"Why?" Ryo asked, tilting his head. He looked at Kamenashi's dazzling smile and suddenly had a feeling of uncertainty.
"Because..." Kamenashi fluttered his eyes and stopped for a second before continuing, "Because Ryo really likes this song."
"What song is it?" Ryo asked.
"Kuroge Wagyu Joshio Tan Yaki 735 Yen," Kamenashi replied with a smile.
Ryo blinked his eyes, then said, "I don't like it at all. It's like it's pretending to be cute."
Kamenashi nodded his head and dropped Ryo's hand, then turned around making his way towards the kitchen.
Ryo lowered his eyes to look at Kamenashi's moving feet, then slowly moved upwards, watching Kamenashi's slim figure. Then Ryo paused. What was that thumping feeling inside his heart? Why did his eyes would naturally follow Kamenashi's figure?
Kamenashi mixed a glass of Bourbon and poured out a cup of juice. He walked into the living room and placed it on the table, then sat down and took a sip of the juice. Ryo looked at the Bourbon that Kamenashi mixed, staring at the slight amber-colour. His thoughts seem to go to the past, but he could only go up to when he met Kamenashi again. He couldn't remember anything pass that.
Kamenashi drank a sip of the cool juice, and a bright smile appeared on his face again. Ryo watched and felt amazed. Why did Kamenashi always have a smile on his face? As if the smallest thing can make him laugh. Still watching, Ryo asked, "Why is Kamenashi always smiling?"
Kamenashi lifted his head and looked at Ryo with a pair of eyes that were almost as cute as an animal's eyes. He tilted his head and thought for a while, then said, "Because I'm happy. I'm really happy to be living with Ryo."
"Really?" Ryo furrowed his eyebrows together. Then what was happiness?
Kamenashi lowered his head and sipped his juice again. His face was red and he looked really cute. Ryo looked at Kamenashi's face, then bent down his body to look at his face from below, his gaze intense. Kamenashi met Ryo's eyes and his face turned even redder. His eyes darted and turned his face away, not letting Ryo see him.
Ryo blinked his eyes. Seeing how Kamenashi wouldn't let him see, he stood up and hugged him from behind. Kamenashi was shocked by Ryo's action and couldn't move, so Ryo lifted Kamenashi's face to look at it more carefully.
After a while, Ryo finally said, "Why do you look like a girl?"
"I don't." Kamenashi rolled his eyes at Ryo and the other let go of Kamenashi, sitting back on the couch to sip his Bourbon.
Kamenashi puffed up his cheeks at Ryo. He drank the juice in one gulp and hurriedly went back to his room.
Once he closed the door, Kamenashi slid down against the door to the floor. Slowly, he lifted his hands to touch his face that Ryo had touched. His cheeks were warm, and his lips curled up into a sweet smile.
Kameashi leaned against the door and closed his eyes, still smiling. What a happy feeling!
Sitting on the couch, Ryo put down the glass and stared at his hands that had just touched Kamenashi's face, his lips unconsciously tugging upwards. Remembering Kamenashi's shocked face, he couldn't help but laugh out loud because the other had looked really cute. Then he remembered Kamenashi's always smiling face. The smile was really bright, as if it was like the sun and would give out warmth. Also...when he first met Kamenashi, that scared, uneasy look he had on his face. When Ryo saw that, he wanted to protect Kamenashi and just spoil him.
Ryo felt that his heart was thumping again and he pressed a hand on his chest, feeling his heart beat. Ryo smiled. Even though this feeling was weird, but he wasn't against it. He even...liked this feeling a bit.
Leaning on the couch, Ryo closed his heavy eyelids and said softly, "This feeling...what is it?"
When evening came, Kamenashi stepped out of the bedroom, planning to make dinner. Ryo though grabbed his arm and the serious look on his face scared Kamenashi. He looked at Ryo's eyes and face and paused, a feeling of fear came up in his heart. 'He doesn't remember, right...?'
Ryo cupped Kamenashi's face gently with his hands, his eyes on the other's pair of lips. After a while, Ryo leaned down slowly and kissed them. Kamenashi didn't move, his eyes widened as he looked at the enlarged face of Ryo. His heart wouldn't stop beating wildly, thumpthumpthump...
Pulling away from Kamenashi's lips, Ryo brushed the other's hair, then placed a hand on Kamenashi's chest, feeling his heart was pounding loudly. Ryo blinked his eyes and paused for a bit before asking, "What is this feeling?"
"Eh?" Kamenashi looked at Ryo with a confused look.
"The heart thumping loudly. What is this feeling?" Ryo asked.
"Ah..." Kamenashi's face was immediately by a shade of red. He lowered his eyes and said softly, "Probably like..."
"Li...ke?" Ryo looked at Kamenashi, his eyes showing some uncertainty.
Kamenashi nodded his head and kept his eyes lowered. He could feel the intense stare of Ryo still on his face, and he felt so embarrassed that he didn't dare to raise his face to meet that burning look.
"That means..." Ryo pursed his lips, letting out a deep and soft voice, "I like Kamenashi then..."
"Eh?" Hearing Ryo's words, Kamenashi looked up at Ryo in surprise.
"I like watching Kamenashi moving in the living room, like Kamenashi's really bright smile, like Kamenashi's eyes which always look smaller when smiling...every time I think of Kamenashi, my heart would start pounding." Ryo said in a casual manner, as if he was talking about someone else.
Kamenashi just stood on the spot. His eyes filled with his tears, and Ryo's face in front of him turned blurry because of his tears. He bit on his lip lightly. Ryo looked at Kamenashi's face and was surprised to find his eyes full of tears. He bent his knees slightly and asked, "What's wrong?"
Kamenashi found Ryo looking worried through those dark eyes of his. His lips tugged up subconsciously. Wiping away the tears that had fallen, he said softly, "I'm happy to hear Ryo say that."
"Why?" Ryo asked, cocking his head to one side.
Kamenashi blinked his eyes at Ryo and hesitated for a moment before saying, "Because I like Ryo too. I like you very much, but Ryo used to tell me that you hated me."
"Why would I hate you?" Ryo ruffled his hair, his eyebrows furrowing together. "Kamenashi is very cute!"
Kamenashi lowered his head, smiling softly, but then under his smile was a shade of sadness.
If you remember everything, you won't say that anymore...
At first, the two of them would sleep on their own bed, but he didn't know when it started, but Ryo was holding Kamenashi to sleep. The reason was: "Why should I sleep on a double bed alone? Double beds are meant for two people to sleep on!"
Being in Ryo's arms made Kamenashi feel happy. When Ryo held Kamenashi in his arms, Kamenashi felt like his heart was about to jump and fall out, feeling so excited that he could shout out loud. It was because ever since he was young, Kamenashi had already liked Ryo, his clear eyes forever following Ryo, watching him be harsh to other people, watching him being yelled at by teachers, watching him argue with his father...
Ryo stroked Kamenashi's hair. Ever since Kamenashi appeared in his life, he felt like the original grey world started to change, like some sort of colours had mixed in with the greyness... If he was asked what the colour was, then it was probably a pink that was concentrated and filled with love?
Parting Kamenashi's hair, Ryo looked at the faint scar on his forehead and touched it gently with his finger. He asked quietly, "How did you get this?"
Kamenashi lifted his head to look at Ryo and quickly patted his hair back down to cover the scar, saying softly, "I got it when I fell down."
"Then Kame-chan should be more careful!" Ryo's lips drew into a light smile and pressed a soft kiss on Kamenashi's forehead.
Kamenashi buried his face in Ryo's chest. His cheeks were pink and his lips made a cute smile. He also didn't know when it started, but Ryo started calling him Kame-chan. Kamenashi liked this name, and felt that it was very intimate.
In the darkness, it was hard to see Kamenashi's expression clearly. Ryo cupped Kamenashi's face and looked at the other seriously, vaguely noticing the cute smile of Kamenashi's. Once he saw it, he felt happy himself. Ryo didn't know why he felt so joyful at the sight of Kamenashi's smile. Ryo said softly, "I love you."
Hearing Ryo's words, Kamenashi's face immediately turned all red. Before, every night, he used to wish to hear Ryo say that, and now that he heard it, his heart was filled with happiness and shock. Kamenashi was so overwhelmed that a tear rolled down and he said softly, "I love Ryo very much too..."
Ryo gave a soft smile and kissed Kamenashi's lips, nibbling on it lightly. His tongue made his way into Kamenashi's mouth, and started a playful game with the other's tongue.
Notes: Um...I SWEAR THE CHAPTER ENDS HERE AND THAT I DIDN'T CUT ANYTHING.
Anyways, another chapter that was translated in a lecture like a week ago! //whacked// I literally totally tuned out the course director that lecture. Barely took any notes and had no idea why were we talking about Buddhism during Art of Asia. Well, okay, no, it kind of made sense, but I just felt lost because I apparently did the wrong readings. >.>''
Anyways...hm...I don't have RyoKame related things to say? Oh of course, other than the RP. XDDD Ryo just asked Kame out (not necessarily a date because like Ryo would never admit that) and Kame won't stop fretting, going laksjflaksjfas RYO JUST ASKED ME OUT. Not to mention they're going ice-skating, so Kame's hoping he doesn't make a fool out of himself because even though he might be okay at it, it's been a while, so he's afraid he'll fall or something and hopes Ryo will catch him. Other than that, I'm still waiting for that Japanese RyoKame fic to update XDD;; //whacked//
Did I mention this RyoKame fic isn't that long at all? //hint//
Comments are love~
Part Four (Final
Translator: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: PG
Fandom: JE
Genre: AU, Romance
Pairing: Nishikido Ryo x Kamenashi Kazuya
Warnings: BL/Shounen-ai. Unbeta-ed
Part One | Part Two
At Least I Remember, I Love You
By Zheung Yuu
Translated by Shattered Tenshi
Chapter Three
What exactly are emotions? Why is it that when I look at you, my heart would naturally beat faster?
That familiar pair of pale feet were moving on the floor again. Ryo sat on the couch, his fingers tapping the couch in a rhythm as he peered his eyes watching Kamenashi dancing around. The radio had just played a song and when Kamenashi heard it, he started to dance around excitedly, spinning in circles as he danced in front of Ryo. Kamenashi wore a smile that was as bright as sunflower. His gaze stopped on Ryo's face for second, then went up to tug on Ryo's hand, saying excitedly, "Ryo, before every time we hear this song, we would both start dancing excitedly!"
"Why?" Ryo asked, tilting his head. He looked at Kamenashi's dazzling smile and suddenly had a feeling of uncertainty.
"Because..." Kamenashi fluttered his eyes and stopped for a second before continuing, "Because Ryo really likes this song."
"What song is it?" Ryo asked.
"Kuroge Wagyu Joshio Tan Yaki 735 Yen," Kamenashi replied with a smile.
Ryo blinked his eyes, then said, "I don't like it at all. It's like it's pretending to be cute."
Kamenashi nodded his head and dropped Ryo's hand, then turned around making his way towards the kitchen.
Ryo lowered his eyes to look at Kamenashi's moving feet, then slowly moved upwards, watching Kamenashi's slim figure. Then Ryo paused. What was that thumping feeling inside his heart? Why did his eyes would naturally follow Kamenashi's figure?
Kamenashi mixed a glass of Bourbon and poured out a cup of juice. He walked into the living room and placed it on the table, then sat down and took a sip of the juice. Ryo looked at the Bourbon that Kamenashi mixed, staring at the slight amber-colour. His thoughts seem to go to the past, but he could only go up to when he met Kamenashi again. He couldn't remember anything pass that.
Kamenashi drank a sip of the cool juice, and a bright smile appeared on his face again. Ryo watched and felt amazed. Why did Kamenashi always have a smile on his face? As if the smallest thing can make him laugh. Still watching, Ryo asked, "Why is Kamenashi always smiling?"
Kamenashi lifted his head and looked at Ryo with a pair of eyes that were almost as cute as an animal's eyes. He tilted his head and thought for a while, then said, "Because I'm happy. I'm really happy to be living with Ryo."
"Really?" Ryo furrowed his eyebrows together. Then what was happiness?
Kamenashi lowered his head and sipped his juice again. His face was red and he looked really cute. Ryo looked at Kamenashi's face, then bent down his body to look at his face from below, his gaze intense. Kamenashi met Ryo's eyes and his face turned even redder. His eyes darted and turned his face away, not letting Ryo see him.
Ryo blinked his eyes. Seeing how Kamenashi wouldn't let him see, he stood up and hugged him from behind. Kamenashi was shocked by Ryo's action and couldn't move, so Ryo lifted Kamenashi's face to look at it more carefully.
After a while, Ryo finally said, "Why do you look like a girl?"
"I don't." Kamenashi rolled his eyes at Ryo and the other let go of Kamenashi, sitting back on the couch to sip his Bourbon.
Kamenashi puffed up his cheeks at Ryo. He drank the juice in one gulp and hurriedly went back to his room.
Once he closed the door, Kamenashi slid down against the door to the floor. Slowly, he lifted his hands to touch his face that Ryo had touched. His cheeks were warm, and his lips curled up into a sweet smile.
Kameashi leaned against the door and closed his eyes, still smiling. What a happy feeling!
Sitting on the couch, Ryo put down the glass and stared at his hands that had just touched Kamenashi's face, his lips unconsciously tugging upwards. Remembering Kamenashi's shocked face, he couldn't help but laugh out loud because the other had looked really cute. Then he remembered Kamenashi's always smiling face. The smile was really bright, as if it was like the sun and would give out warmth. Also...when he first met Kamenashi, that scared, uneasy look he had on his face. When Ryo saw that, he wanted to protect Kamenashi and just spoil him.
Ryo felt that his heart was thumping again and he pressed a hand on his chest, feeling his heart beat. Ryo smiled. Even though this feeling was weird, but he wasn't against it. He even...liked this feeling a bit.
Leaning on the couch, Ryo closed his heavy eyelids and said softly, "This feeling...what is it?"
When evening came, Kamenashi stepped out of the bedroom, planning to make dinner. Ryo though grabbed his arm and the serious look on his face scared Kamenashi. He looked at Ryo's eyes and face and paused, a feeling of fear came up in his heart. 'He doesn't remember, right...?'
Ryo cupped Kamenashi's face gently with his hands, his eyes on the other's pair of lips. After a while, Ryo leaned down slowly and kissed them. Kamenashi didn't move, his eyes widened as he looked at the enlarged face of Ryo. His heart wouldn't stop beating wildly, thumpthumpthump...
Pulling away from Kamenashi's lips, Ryo brushed the other's hair, then placed a hand on Kamenashi's chest, feeling his heart was pounding loudly. Ryo blinked his eyes and paused for a bit before asking, "What is this feeling?"
"Eh?" Kamenashi looked at Ryo with a confused look.
"The heart thumping loudly. What is this feeling?" Ryo asked.
"Ah..." Kamenashi's face was immediately by a shade of red. He lowered his eyes and said softly, "Probably like..."
"Li...ke?" Ryo looked at Kamenashi, his eyes showing some uncertainty.
Kamenashi nodded his head and kept his eyes lowered. He could feel the intense stare of Ryo still on his face, and he felt so embarrassed that he didn't dare to raise his face to meet that burning look.
"That means..." Ryo pursed his lips, letting out a deep and soft voice, "I like Kamenashi then..."
"Eh?" Hearing Ryo's words, Kamenashi looked up at Ryo in surprise.
"I like watching Kamenashi moving in the living room, like Kamenashi's really bright smile, like Kamenashi's eyes which always look smaller when smiling...every time I think of Kamenashi, my heart would start pounding." Ryo said in a casual manner, as if he was talking about someone else.
Kamenashi just stood on the spot. His eyes filled with his tears, and Ryo's face in front of him turned blurry because of his tears. He bit on his lip lightly. Ryo looked at Kamenashi's face and was surprised to find his eyes full of tears. He bent his knees slightly and asked, "What's wrong?"
Kamenashi found Ryo looking worried through those dark eyes of his. His lips tugged up subconsciously. Wiping away the tears that had fallen, he said softly, "I'm happy to hear Ryo say that."
"Why?" Ryo asked, cocking his head to one side.
Kamenashi blinked his eyes at Ryo and hesitated for a moment before saying, "Because I like Ryo too. I like you very much, but Ryo used to tell me that you hated me."
"Why would I hate you?" Ryo ruffled his hair, his eyebrows furrowing together. "Kamenashi is very cute!"
Kamenashi lowered his head, smiling softly, but then under his smile was a shade of sadness.
If you remember everything, you won't say that anymore...
At first, the two of them would sleep on their own bed, but he didn't know when it started, but Ryo was holding Kamenashi to sleep. The reason was: "Why should I sleep on a double bed alone? Double beds are meant for two people to sleep on!"
Being in Ryo's arms made Kamenashi feel happy. When Ryo held Kamenashi in his arms, Kamenashi felt like his heart was about to jump and fall out, feeling so excited that he could shout out loud. It was because ever since he was young, Kamenashi had already liked Ryo, his clear eyes forever following Ryo, watching him be harsh to other people, watching him being yelled at by teachers, watching him argue with his father...
Ryo stroked Kamenashi's hair. Ever since Kamenashi appeared in his life, he felt like the original grey world started to change, like some sort of colours had mixed in with the greyness... If he was asked what the colour was, then it was probably a pink that was concentrated and filled with love?
Parting Kamenashi's hair, Ryo looked at the faint scar on his forehead and touched it gently with his finger. He asked quietly, "How did you get this?"
Kamenashi lifted his head to look at Ryo and quickly patted his hair back down to cover the scar, saying softly, "I got it when I fell down."
"Then Kame-chan should be more careful!" Ryo's lips drew into a light smile and pressed a soft kiss on Kamenashi's forehead.
Kamenashi buried his face in Ryo's chest. His cheeks were pink and his lips made a cute smile. He also didn't know when it started, but Ryo started calling him Kame-chan. Kamenashi liked this name, and felt that it was very intimate.
In the darkness, it was hard to see Kamenashi's expression clearly. Ryo cupped Kamenashi's face and looked at the other seriously, vaguely noticing the cute smile of Kamenashi's. Once he saw it, he felt happy himself. Ryo didn't know why he felt so joyful at the sight of Kamenashi's smile. Ryo said softly, "I love you."
Hearing Ryo's words, Kamenashi's face immediately turned all red. Before, every night, he used to wish to hear Ryo say that, and now that he heard it, his heart was filled with happiness and shock. Kamenashi was so overwhelmed that a tear rolled down and he said softly, "I love Ryo very much too..."
Ryo gave a soft smile and kissed Kamenashi's lips, nibbling on it lightly. His tongue made his way into Kamenashi's mouth, and started a playful game with the other's tongue.
Notes: Um...I SWEAR THE CHAPTER ENDS HERE AND THAT I DIDN'T CUT ANYTHING.
Anyways, another chapter that was translated in a lecture like a week ago! //whacked// I literally totally tuned out the course director that lecture. Barely took any notes and had no idea why were we talking about Buddhism during Art of Asia. Well, okay, no, it kind of made sense, but I just felt lost because I apparently did the wrong readings. >.>''
Anyways...hm...I don't have RyoKame related things to say? Oh of course, other than the RP. XDDD Ryo just asked Kame out (not necessarily a date because like Ryo would never admit that) and Kame won't stop fretting, going laksjflaksjfas RYO JUST ASKED ME OUT. Not to mention they're going ice-skating, so Kame's hoping he doesn't make a fool out of himself because even though he might be okay at it, it's been a while, so he's afraid he'll fall or something and hopes Ryo will catch him. Other than that, I'm still waiting for that Japanese RyoKame fic to update XDD;; //whacked//
Did I mention this RyoKame fic isn't that long at all? //hint//
Comments are love~
Part Four (Final