shawn_w

Dancing With Myself

shawn_w Sep 21, 2008 21:59

One of the easiest post titles to come up with, really ( Read more... )

socialization, aud, depression, wedding, red square, buffalo memorial auditorium, cont, loneliness, change

Okay, so, a couple of days ago...

shawn_w Jul 01, 2008 14:22

...I responded to a rather intelligent-sounding personal ad on craigslist that I was sure couldn't be a spammer, and did so with a long, well thought-out response. I received a quick auto-reply directing me to a blog. I kind of knew where this was going, but followed just to confirm my suspicions. It forwarded me to a personals site. ::sigh:: It ( Read more... )

personal ad, relationship, compliment, spam

The Cure at the Wolstein Center, Cleveland, Ohio, June 18, 2008

shawn_w Jun 24, 2008 14:31

Until I fell asleep last night, I'd been in a very odd mood since seeing The Cure for the second time on the tour at their show at the Wolstein Center at Cleveland State University last Wednesday. The reason? I not only saw but talked with my second ex for 15-20 minutes after the end of the show. As a few of you know, that relationship ended ( Read more... )

cleveland, peace, angst, the cure, anger, negativity, friendship, ex

Penance

shawn_w Jun 23, 2008 14:45

Penance

So, we meet again
and you look the same
but I'm not the same
and the world's not the same
it's five years older

I wish that we hadn't ended on a bad note
but we did
I thought that I'd gotten over it ages ago
but I guess that I didn't
because of all the negativity surfacing in my mind

I thought that talking
trying to bury the hatchet
apologizing once ( Read more... )

self-deprecation, regret, poetry

I'm Not Here, or, Sunday Morning, 6am

shawn_w Jun 23, 2008 14:38

I'm Not Here, or, Sunday Morning, 6am

So here I am again
early in the morning
Woken by nothing in particular
but no one with whom to talk
not that very many would care to listen anyway

So here I am again
early in the morning
repeating myself
wishing that something would be different this time
but of course it's not

So here I am again
sitting at my desk
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loneliness, poetry

So, would you like to know what was bothering me back in February?

shawn_w Apr 08, 2008 15:31

Well, even if you don't, here it is.

On February 13, my mother's only brother, Mark, suffered a burst aortic aneurysm. He was in severe pain on his way to Niagara Falls Memorial Medical Center. I'm not sure if he lost consciousness on his own or if they put him under, but he never woke. He died in the ICU early in the afternoon of February 14, which ( Read more... )

death, valentine, mark, funeral, birthday

Okay, here's Part 2 of the story, finally...

shawn_w Feb 25, 2008 16:05

...about two weeks after I'd originally intended to post it, but I have a very legitimate excuse, which I'll get into in my next entry.

After Karen and I decided to take a break from our relationship back in the middle of last June, I felt listless and less motivated than usual, and quite lost. I decided to take the entire month of July off from ( Read more... )

karen, relationship, part 2, disrespect, end

Hey, kids, long time, no post!

shawn_w Feb 10, 2008 08:46

It's been about 2 1/2 years since I last posted an entry on LiveJournal, so here's an update. I'm going to start by discussing the relationship that developed, and then faded. Some of you may already know most or at least some of what I'm going to post, so if that's the case, consider it to be a refresher. :) Oh, and as a warning, this is very long ( Read more... )

love, beginning, relationship, end

Well, it's certainly been a while, again.

shawn_w Sep 06, 2005 22:17

I really haven't had a good excuse for not updating this in so long. I have an excuse, procrastination, but like I said, it's not a good one. Anyway, here's an update ( Read more... )

Many moons ago...

shawn_w Apr 07, 2005 17:00

...this journal was last updated. More specifically, I haven't updated it in just short of 6 months. Well, here's an update ( Read more... )