a lot of things have been happening lately.  i think a single phrase sums most of them up...

uh oh

I just don't know what to do.  I try so hard to be the best friend that I can and it seems that I fail regularly.  The thing I hate most is the drifting away of friends, and I try to be mindful of it, alleviate the problem as best I can, and continue on like before.  But it is just getting so taxing.  I don't mean to sound self-aggrandizing, but it ( Read more... )

after tonight i've realized two important things.

1. i am actually over it, this was the test

2. i want a girlfriend

haha

moving on feels good.  i didn't think this would happen.  hopefully this works out.

for the love of god everyone, it doesn't bother me.
 i'm not broken up over it.
 i'm not distraught because of it.

i know it may be news, but i'm not some clingy, committed lunatic concerning this issue.

stop asking.

Things feel really empty.  It was like this a while ago and i thought it would pass but it seems to be intensifying.  I hope this goes away.  I don't feel like myself anymore.

feels good to have one of the kids win.  Congrats emily.

feels good to see meg so happy with the team, especially after leaving such a successful one. 

This is one of those unimportant posts that you do when you're bored and you know no one will care ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking about you ( Read more... )

I think the most ironic thing of my life just happened.  It was funny and everything, but how weird that it happened.  I think i don't have a shot after tonight, but that thought is mixed with the idea that there is a chance.  A chance that everything will fall into place.  But of course it won't...at least with my luck.