I am currently supposed to be writing a paper for my logic class, but i don't really care about that right now.  This hit me and i thought it was worth commenting about (which means a decent amount considering i hardly find things important enough to write).  On to the post ( Read more... )

i was walking back to manzanita from the honors dorms and i was just convinced i was going to write something.

i don't have anything coherent to say.  I don't have anything even resembling clear thoughts to write.

i wish you knew...i really do.

i really do.

this is how i feel...it will save a lot of writing ( Read more... )

isn't is funny how things work out like that?

well, i suppose that "work out" is a deceptive term, in that it didn't.

i can tell i am about to be smothered by that ever too frequent feeling...again.

"When I'm sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
Its alright she says its alright"

Today was one of those days that is terrible for no cognizant reason.  One of those days where you are depressed and you don't know why.  One of those days that comes out of nowhere and is obviously unwanted.  ONe of those days that comes at the worst time.  And one of those days you realize it is one of those days.

I want to tell her what she has ( Read more... )

i can see this twisting and turning into a miserable closing like it was before...for me at least...

it was horribly naive for me to even begin imagining the idea that this could be brought to fruition.

god, i need to learn from my mistakes...i never do.

but of course i will keep on doing whatever...i always do.

*sigh*...not her again...

fuck.

i can never be able to properly assess the future and what it might bring.  This is an obvious issue i need to fix.

but, it's not that i am unable to try and see things like what certain things might do for me (i.e. education will be good for the future).

it is things like certain people talking to me and not being able to tell if i could have a ( Read more... )

it's all so frustrating.

Being in different dorms than everyone else, things never working out, that sinking feeling again (especially heightened as of late) and just so much more.  It's very annoying that i see others get even remotely close and they feel bad but i don't even get that far.  Some would say that is better; however, i guarentee a ( Read more... )

i really need to stop being paranoid.  This always happens and i hate it; but what if it is true?  I don't think i could deal with it well at all ( Read more... )