I'm tired and cold and I feel like I'm going to have a small scale breakdown. Life...it should be less hateful towards me.

I'm shaking and my muscles are spasming. I've been exhausted for most of the work week, for almost a month. I'm on the verge of losing my job because I can't be consistent. I'm just so frustrated and I feel helpless.

Hey there. Just wanted to update folks. I'm working, finally. It's a steady job as one of the lower end of managers at a local grocery chain. It's forced me to take out my piercings, and I hate that ( Read more... )

Yep, folks, it finally happened. I have no idea how my family will react, but I hope it doesn't cause a big problem.


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Goth penguin!!!! ^_^

So I'm once again feeling on the outside. I can't really spend any money right now, so all I can do is focus on my hair and the way I look. And when I ask for advice from folks, the response I get is "fuck your appearance! be [insert subculture here ( Read more... )

Right now, I just feel so empty. Like nothing I am doing will bring me happiness, nor last more than a few weeks. I'm painting my great grandma's house, and once I'm done with that, I have no job prospects. I don't have any useful skills either. I'm wanting to go back to college, but here is the problem: I don't know what to study.

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All I've gotta say is that Palin needs to grow a pair. I don't think it's any bit honorable to just tiptoe around anything that could possibly offend somebody. You might as well sew your lips shut. I'm happy to admit that I'm a bit of a dumbass, so I could be wrong. But in this case, I seriously doubt it.

So I'm still trying to figure it out. Why in the world is there such a strain between goths, deathrockers, punks, and psychobillies. It's very odd to see what all the groups do. They bash each other, and I'm going "what the fuck?" Aren't we all the dark sorts (well, maybe not the punks but you know what I mean). It just does not make sense to me ( Read more... )

So I think I might be ready and willing to move to ol' Albuquerque, New Mexico. I just have to find somewhere to stay, somewhere to work, and a few other things, and I'll be set. Plenty of good restaurants around, which is a plus. *sighs* I guess it'll take me a good amount of time before I have the funds saved up to move. How will I tell my ( Read more... )