The last few days have been kind of interesting.  A mix of relief and renuned frustration.
I booked my flight today.  I'm not good at being poor.  I know I need to get good at living on a budget, but I have never actually had to before.  I need to learn to live on a budget.
I booked my flight for the eighteenth.  My only finals are on Thursday.  I ( Read more... )

I've been working on my paper for the past, say, day...and I really think I finally have a handle on it.  I'm motivated, and prepared, and I can do this.  And, I'm not going to let anything interfere with that.  I am motivated, I can do this, and I am damn well going to.  Dammit.
So, an outline:

Final Paper: Resistance and Global Jihad
- Introduction
- ( Read more... )

This is ridiculous.  I don't even know where to begin.  I really fucked myself this semester.  Yes, what happened was out of my control, but I let it bother me, I let it get to me and bring me down, I let it effect me and I didn't have to.  But, I did, and now I'm screwed up and down, completely lost in how to fix it, and about to give up.  I can't ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a while...I don't think you were dying for it...so I'm not going to apologize.
I went back to Oklahoma for Thanksgiving.  Not a lot happened, it was kinda of moderate.  Went to Bueno, that was interesting--hahaha...oh dear.  Had some good coffee for the first time in a while.  Ate food for free.  Almost had my car repossessed-- ( Read more... )

I'm doing my laundry...it's been a while.  Laundry is sucky enough, so it doesn't help to motivate when you have to pay to do it.  It just makes things worse.
I've started packing.  Not just for this next weekend, for good.  I pulled out all the boxes I saved from moving in, and other boxes I received over the semester, and piled them.  Some of them ( Read more... )

I have no idea what I'm going to do.
God, I fucking hate this.  It's so up and down.  One day I feel good, confident, ready; and, the next I feel stalemate, stuck, tired, and confused.
I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.
If you can't tell, today is one of those stalemate days.
I want this semester to be over, I want to be doing something with ( Read more... )

I don't exactly know what's going on in my life...exactly.
I haven't seen anyone in nearly weeks.  Today I've spent the whole day with Nicolette.  It feels super good.  I kind of feel like I've pulled out of a funk, or something, or anything...but, it's like I'm in the clear again.  I feel like I want to do everything, get everything done, and spend ( Read more... )

I have the feeling I'm going to fail Russian.  Not good shit.  I know he doesn't want to to fail, and is pretty much going to do whatever it takes to help me not fail, but, it's going to be hard.
Also, I got a 54 on my last math exam.  There is hopefully fifteen points of extra credit for going to lecture today, and it's stuff I actually know how to ( Read more... )

I'm unsure how I'm feeling, but I know however it is, I'm not alone.
Never alone.
At least that's what I'm being told, and that's how it feels a little.
But, I don't want to talk about that...I want to do something else.  This is what I want to do:
1.) You get me, more than anyone else, you get me.  We have the kind of friendship that never ends.  I ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm frustrated, but I am.  I don't know why it bothers me so much that my brother is driving my car back and forth to work, or that he put power locks in it.  It really bothers me.  I don't know why.  I wish it didn't and I shouldn't care...but, I'm going to be paying for that car, and apparently I owe him $600 for fixing it.  Even ( Read more... )