it isn't that i was impressed / engaged / involved before...it's that just it's getting more and more pointless to fake.

wednesdays are interesting days....the past two have been disturbing...generally things happen around 11am...things that shake what little faith i have in my perception of reality...things that make me want to curl into the fetal position and lie still on a cold stone floor and to breathe shallowly while i wait for my throat to reopen enough so ( Read more... )

i don't know where i sit anymore...with myself...with other people...when i stop actively doing things..project hopping..being incredibly busy...when i slow down and breathe my throat closes because there is this ridiculously awesome sense of the unknown and of not knowing and a loss of agency that i can't handle...well..i can...but i don't like it ( Read more... )

i think i want to try my hand at writing a hard core,proper academic paper ( Read more... )

a little bit of a tease for those of you stressing out over finals and papers and life in general...

i am avaliable all summer to cater your parties...this is just a small sampling of my handiwork

thanks to amanda and ioli for the food shots...there are more but i'm in them and so will not post them

if you were at the party you got to eat it....but if ( Read more... )

do you want it?

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said: “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter-bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.”

-In the Desert (Stephen Crane)

"[bobblehead] Rachael Ray is to food, what Hitler was to Poland."

and this is why i will always respect the opinion of Mr. Bourdain

"I'm mind over matter. All I have to do is think of a hamburger...and I'm full."

so..william holdridge..ottawa ON as per facebook...he has one female friend, no male friends..and up until this posting only women leave notes on his wall ( Read more... )