The following is a passage from Stehen King's "The Stand", the complete and uncut edition ( Read more... )

There's always this constant war raging in my head. What to go to school for. What my job is. I hate my job btw. It really drives me nutz. I just finished a resume so hopefully I can get that out and hopefully something will pop up. There are so many open choices. Whats better for me? Which is better for Mike? And finally what is better for both of ( Read more... )

All this shit seems to be happening at once. Its very upsetting. Between work and sleep and more work there are so many bills to pay and things I have to do. I feel utterly helpless when it comes to Mike. IDK what to do. We're both so depressed. My car needs to be fixed tomorrow. We barely spend any time together and when we do we often fight just ( Read more... )

Ya ever feel like you are stuck and the more you struggle the more you sink? The heavier everything feels? And you spend all this time that you just want to give the fuck up and fall asleep? Lately everyday feels like that, even with the amazing weather we've been having. I find myself drifting farther away from everyone and everything. And the ( Read more... )

Its been one of those weeks where the word 'fuck' seems to sum it all up. No sleep, no me time, no easy work days, no relaxation, no time to even take a bubble bath, got my check and paid bills so no money. SO fuck it is. Now thats its over (at least til sunday when it starts all over again) I am finding it hard to relax. Hard to say "Whew glad ( Read more... )

I am going insane. Its already started. 2 days and the man is already using power tools in the middle of the night. I love Mike's dad but really?! I have to freakin get up at 5 am for work. And I cant nap when I get home cuz he's always talking to us and coming in and it drives me nutz. I think tomorrow I might spend at my moms. IDK yet. Seriously ( Read more... )

Still havent found an apartment. lol. There are two conditions an apartment must meet. 1)allow pets. And 2) be affordable ( Read more... )

So I work my ass off and all my money is gone a few days after I get paid. Its so frustrating! At least if I lived in my own apartment instead of Mike's parents I might actually feel like the money is going somewhere and I am finally starting to dig myself out of the this hole ( Read more... )

So as I dive deeper into Christian Lit I am find more 'serious' christian writers write alot about Satan and his desire to corrupt you and all that. Which I find not only boring but incredibly retarded ( Read more... )

I'm bored. And freezing. And I cant think cuz I'm tired but not enough to fall alseep. This equals easy recipie for me being pissy ( Read more... )