So the last few years I havent been myself, I've been very mousey and fearful. I'm starting to come out of that now and I am glad ( Read more... )

I like winter because its dark and cold... like my heart. Ah such a very goth thing to say. Its odd tho. In winter I do get darker and more cold. But also winter feels REAL. I mean I'm a compassionate person no matter what the weather. But in winter I get slightly more sadistic. And its when I have the most off the wall spontaneous fun. Its like ( Read more... )

Lyrics to Serenity ( Read more... )

I love the movie Beetlejuice. Just throwing that out there ( Read more... )

Here are some of my poems from 2003 and 2004. Keep in mind I was dark and little sadistic. Probably the definition of 'goth'. And of course, they werent really good poems, but more random thoughts. Anyway I thought I might share ( Read more... )

So God gave me this great oppertunity to get to know my blood father. Funny how the mind runs blank. So many things I wanted to ask him and it all pales into comparsion of the fact that now I am talking to him. I found out he's good friends with Sonny Barger. For those who dont know Sonny is the founder of Hells Angels. SO dont piss me off. lol. ( Read more... )

It sucks. Thats about it. lol ( Read more... )

Yes the name of this is out growing. As in I am out growing many of my friends. It started about 2 years ago. By that point I had a job I loved (recently got fired but thats ok) and I had taught myself some great ways to deal with my depression. I preoccupied myself with Wow and independent study and reading. I found that I enjoy intellectual ( Read more... )

I apologize for that last entry. /sigh. SOmetimes I feel like I am going insane with all the different thoughts running through my head. I try to get them out. Most of the time it doesnt work. lol. Even my writing reflects my ADHD ( Read more... )

Things have sort of gotten back on track. So thats good. And the possibility of me hearing from Kathy is very high. So I am looking forward to that ( Read more... )