WoOwEe they put me on more meds!

Thursday night i cut myself and was sent to the hospitaL b/c the cuts wouldnt stop bleeding. Well after they took care of it they sent to to this place for people who are suicidel. They put me in a room with someone they said was my age. I looked at the name tag thingy. It said taryn. But i was too tired and light-headed to realize. So when i was ( Read more... )

i fucking love zach to death. I just cant stop thinking about him. Hhe's so fucking hott!! I just dont show him how much i love him cuz im afraid to but i fucking love him with all my heart!! heh well anyways...today was fucking boring as usuall.. I cant stand having to walk home in this weather. I had another after-school...people just love giving ( Read more... )

I know what happened to taryn probably wouldnt've happened if i wasent such a bitch.. I know everyone thinks its b/c of her mom but i seriously think i pushed it somehow.. she was madd at me. Ugh i dont know but i knwo i didnt mean to hurt her and i do love her. It's just i did think she liked zach and im very over-protective about him b/c he means ( Read more... )

Right now im listening to "moonlight sonata" by beethoven. Im really getting into this kind of music. Bridgette said she doesnt rememeber ignoring me ..heh...well geuss what you did. I dont really care anymore cuz its like i dont even know her anymore. oh well... bre;s coming up then we;re going up town...i gotza go get ready.

ugh alright you know what im gonna ignore everyone from now on. Yeah okay heres what went on. Bridgette said that me and her were gonna fucking go to the town perk and tanning but then when friday came shes fucking going home with brandy. Yeah fuck you too. And then i went to IM brandy and she's being all cocky and shit to me. Ugh i dont fucking ( Read more... )

ugh i fucking hate my mom's boyfriend. I dont even know wtf she see's in him he's ugly as all hell. But anyways he fucking put a time limit on my screen name PLUS i cant go on ANY web sites er anything like that so i prolly wont be updating my journal a lot. He always fucknig puts me down and shit and it gets sooo fucking on my nerves i just wanna ( Read more... )

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I feel like i've lost everything i've ever worked for...I dont know what to do. I feel like my friends no longer want to be my friends..and that i've lost them. Things are different between me and zach i dont even wanna think about that it makes me cry. Ugh im so freggin lost i dontk now what to do with my life anymore.. I dont even know if i wanna ( Read more... )

when you have no light to guide you
and no one to walk beside you
i will come to you
when the night is dark and stormy
you wont have to reach out for me
i will come to you