.......just woke up...................slept pretty good..........kinda cold though..........i gotta work at 2 today.........bleh........2 to 10.............i hate that shift.................so tireing.................i think my rents are goin rideing so ill have to find a ride to work........anyways theres really not much to say.........so ill see ( Read more... )

.........so much is going through my mind right now..........the problem......is that i make things to serious..............i never ment to make her seem like my reason for living...............shes just my reason for living happy........the one thing that might be the best for us..............is the one thing i fear the most.........im leaving it ( Read more... )

..........words escape me tonight.......ive never felt this fuckin horrible in my life.........if only i understood............*shakes head*.............*looks at floor*...............*tears flow like raindrops from myne eyes*..........

......its about 11:30............and im stil home alone............listening to box car racer............thinking about her.........were fine..........really good accually............im just thinking about her..............i cant really explain how im feeling right now............im both sad and happy............im happy because of her..........and ( Read more... )

....just got off work.............mom came in to tell me that my dads in the hospital..............i guess he had really bad pains in his side..........shaunas freakin out about it.........if i cared about him i would be too............but i really have no sence of compassion for him.....................work went ok......tiring though.............. ( Read more... )

......everyday just seems to add more and more confusion and stress to my life..........i love her so much but sometimes she makes me feel like im nothing but an annoyance.........i feel like im following her, begging to be noticed......i hate feeling that way.........im told by a few people that she loves me and cares about me a whole lot.......i ( Read more... )

....school went ok..........*shakes head*......life just keeps toying with me.......everything goes good.......then goes bad........then gets really good.......i dont fuckin know anymore.........im just so fuckin emotional lately........i really just need to see her and be like we used to be........i miss that.........but i got shit to do and i ( Read more... )

love.............the one emotion i will never understand............nor will anyone else............its not possible........i fuckin hate body language.........and fuckin vibes.........and weird feelings you get when you think you know whats going on................you know i try so fucking hard............for everyone.......but nothing changes ( Read more... )

.........been awhile sence my last update.........got in some shit with the parents........so they grounded me from the computer.........only until school lets out though.........which is like what 8, 7 days? Not that bad of a grounding........its 20 after 6..........bleh....way to fuckin early for this shit...........got to talk to jenna last ( Read more... )

today sucked.........worked.........got to talk to jenna though and shes supposed to call me back..........whoevers saying i like susan as much as jenna is retarded.......because i wouldnt wait 5 months for any other girl........or skip school and walk to any other girls house when there sick.........or do half the things ive done for jenna...... ( Read more... )