i feel like i am about to explode, and no one reads this anyway ( Read more... )

i wish i didn't want to be alone 24/7.

why do i refuse to let anyone in?
the people i think are in, aren't.

i think a walk is in order.
at least it is sunny and cool and breezy out.
at least i have that.

i am on my p and it's making me want to kick and scream and cry and rant about how inadequate i feel ( Read more... )

using my student loan to pay off my credit card, get my timing belt on my car fixed and buy a plane ticket to seattle for the second half of the summer. probably not the most responsible decisions, but fuck, i'm still kind of a kid right? 

I started a music blog. www.wesaiddestroy.blogspot.com

I'm just going to be posting music I like. New stuff I hear as well as old favorites and whatnot. 

jason and i had our first mini band practice last night. aside from me feeling bummed out that I don't have the skill to contribute more yet, it went well. our band is called the patience and we have been talking about it since we first got together. i'm very excited that it is actually beginning to materialize.

someone left a note on my car saying "you are a very beautiful girl. i hope you know this and hold your head high because of it. enjoy your life."

How does one go about conquering jealousy and insecurity?

When, in my relationship, will i stop wondering when i am going to be cheated on, when i am going to be lied to, when i am going to be left behind?

I want to feel at ease so fucking bad. I can't handle always being on edge.

i want to feel excited about something. anything.