Hello. It's been a while. Spring semester has passed. I was very excited about it's advent in my last entry. It ended up being really good. I think that now I have as much of a niche at case as I ever will. I'm happy with it. I've fallen in amongst a few misfits. I am living with them over the course of next year ( Read more... )

So, last semester I was looking forward to this one, and rightly so. I like my classes a lot, I like my professors a lot, and I am taking those drum lessons. + a key to the drumset room. Drums any time I want, yes ( Read more... )

I cannot sleep. Anxiety is keeping my heart above the rate it needs to settle to in order to sleep. I don't like everything my feelings tell me I should do, and there are some things I can't force on myself. What's got me so worked up? I don't even know. I don't think that subconsciously I want to be worked up. Consciously I definitely don't. Maybe ( Read more... )

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hello again. i am at home, in dear PA. 2005 is over, and thank god. i am really looking forward to having a way better year, for sure. 2005 started on the upswing from 2004 but about midway it just got ridiculously fucked up, ended with a sputter, eh yeah ( Read more... )

I can't wait for this semester to be over. What a world of fucking shit. Never have I felt so uncomfortable with who I am and the fact that I exist in the mode that I do. Ironically, one of these factors is how unprivate of a person I am. I've felt so guilty over this semester for always having put myself out there in the past. How unmanly. I still ( Read more... )

winter has definitely set in hard and fast. it went from a warm though windy and overcast day to where cleveland is now ( Read more... )

it's strange when you write a paper. some teachers take off for implying "I", it's strange to be barred from implying yourself.

hey, when the going gets tough, the tough get reading conrad.

and the tough get listening to stuff like this http://www.

smacking the hands of my head reaching back, because i love too much to do this. i love to much to break down. not that i've been breaking down lately. a little sad. i do like to let myself just idle if i'm feeling confused or overwhelmed, and i've had to force myself through that fog lately. it's a thick fog. sometimes it feels like i'm baby ( Read more... )

when i go home, i won't be so alone ( Read more... )