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The Ups and Downs of Life
Today is great! My boss apologized for getting me in trouble with HR/disability for opening his mouth after I did him a favor and worked from home when I wasn't supposed (acknowledging yes, I know my part in that I shouldn't have and accept responsibility), talked to my Ma in a very healthy manner this morning for over an hour, got pictures of my ( Read more... ) -
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I feel like my stomach is trying to launch it's way into space. Honestly, I am not sick - that isn't what I mean, but it's bloated and I am super self-conscious of myself lately. There is probably no reason for it; I don't believe by any stretch I am "too overweight" and my friend SW, my wife Helena, and my uncle state I am not but of that bunch ( Read more... ) -
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Failed on the Mother's Day work out - I just wasn't feeling so hot and my Ma encouraged me to take a break...and she is right? I cannot keep going full tilt trying to fix the past all at once. Slower is key; I already felt like I was slipping last week so I took the "non-work out hit" and chilled all weekend.
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It's Mother's Day
Today is a day I don't "really" celebrate, but I did my best today given everything that has happened and even sent well wishes to my aunt Janey. I felt that my own misgivings shouldn't reflect how a day is for others, and I sent out a card to my foster mom and my own mom, and then sent well wishes across Facebook, Instagram, and to my HR and some ( Read more... ) -
Stranger Things Have Happened
This has been a long, but short week. I had an appointment in the city I loathe with all passion on Monday, so I met with Frank for breakfast, did the EEG and then had dinner with my uncle, which both was good. I miss Frank tremendously, and I always feel like it's never enough time when we meet up? like I am cheapped out on him... and my uncle ( Read more... ) -
Positive Thoughts..
You know when you see all those memes online stating "if you think positive, positive things will happen" or "you don't have to be like everyone else", and such?
I have been trying, somewhat unsuccessfully, to show my uncle he doesn't have to harbour so much hatred and anger, and while he's entitled to feel it given what my aunt and him went ( Read more... ) -
Lions, and tigers, and slides, oh MY!
I am once again tossing my cookies. You know, it's getting really tiring listening to people say "did you drink alcohol?" no, I didn't drink anything. In fact I haven't had a damn thing since last Friday and then I had ONE drink. This morning I had my 500ml of water, and then got to the station, and bought my $1.05 medium iced vanilla coffee ( ( Read more... ) -
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I have an interview today. It's not with any form of law and I am super looking forward to it. It's at 2 p.m. I need this. Friday my foster brother came down and I had a good time with him at dinner. There is a lot that happened last weekend that I am not ready to get into, but, I will say that yesterday for the first time in a while I had ( Read more... ) -
Random
I got an email from Steve apologizing for everything he said and did. I told him that it wasn't forgiven, and blasted him.
I slept all night trying desperately to reach that moment where everything vanishes and you live in a dream world. I woke up wishing I was still there. -
Freedom of Choice, and Lack of Having Freedom
I feel awful; probably due to the mass amount of liquor over the last while. I can't wait to go home and go to bed. Greg says he's worried and is coming out to spend Saturday to Monday with me. I am going to have to clean my room. It's a mess. He was going to get me cinder blocks so I can raise my bed and buy rolling storage containers for all ( Read more... )