Well I do have to say I'm getting closer every day...closer to control of my life. When I was younger, a was a cocky little shit, a stonge person...more likely to lead then to follow. then I dont really know why, I have my opinions but its not about placeing blame. well anyway I dont know why but I changed so much..I think frist I lost a little ( Read more... )

Today I face a harsh truth...The truth about my life! You see I have so many issue's its hard to even know where to begin. I'm alittle parainiod, I suffer from some form of depression, I allowe myself to live in a fantasy world, and I know all of this so to hide from myself I stay high as a kit. that dont always work ( Read more... )

monday, it seems I forgot all about this site. or maybe I just got tired of always posting negative feelings. well this is another one ( Read more... )

I'll tell you... if it wasnt for bad luck i wouldnt have any luck at all ( Read more... )

Well it's monday night, tomarrow is my b-day. I'm sitting here half stoned, and feeling so sorry for myself. Not for getting older, well maybe alittle of it has to do with age. I hate my life..it seems whenever things start looking better somthing happens to turn it all to shit. It's so draining and fustrating. And it gets worst, I could so ( Read more... )

  It was a warm,  peacful early summer day. I was 12 years old. I was dateing a girl (jenny) whom was 16. Around ten o'clock in he morning, Jenny and her friend Julie (which was my brother's grilfriend) dropped over to hang out.  They came so early so my dad wouldnt be there.

Not long after they arrived My brother( nate) and Julie disappeared to ( Read more... )

  Let's see. well I got my ass chewed out today at work, by a costumer...well his father( family tree )

Well its monday which means time to get back to work. Its not that I hate my job, cause I realy dont...I enjoy it most of the time. But when it feels like all I ever do is work, it starts to get to me.. since I moved back in with my ex, my social life has sucked. I seemed to have lost all motivation to do anything. and it has started pissing me off ( Read more... )

Well today is already starting off kinda wierd...well not wierd, not anymore. I say that couse the things I use to think were wierd, Yeah really not so wierd anymore. I had a talk with my ex-wife/roomate about penis size...not involeing me or mine. well let's just say I dont worrie about my size, and I wont ever after the earlier conversatation a ( Read more... )

Well I've been pining over this for awhile now. And now I know its time to move on with my life. But where to go from here...Thats the Q. I do have A few options, which one is the best? Move in with a friend of mine, maybe. move in with some girls I know, maybe. or get my own place again. I did enjoy living alone, mostly. But where? Not back to ( Read more... )