i seriously feel like i am dying inside so afraid im gonna recieve bad news soooo fucking scared

Havent really had time to write an actual message so i thought i would sit down things were going great i was goiing to school (Or still am) losing weight incredibly happy with my own company then i met this guy i wasn't really thinking anything of it figured oh ya we will talk a bit and then meet and that will be the end. Well he started worming ( Read more... )

I hope someday i can find that delicate balance between

A. Not giving a shit about someone not wanting nothing to do with them

And

B. Liking them to much where they consume my day.

ya must sound crazy i know but i really need to learn this no time like the present right.....

So tired of letting people i think are genuine into my life and having them disapear before i even have time to enjoy them. Yes i have abandonment issues bad and this doesn't help........... i feel like crying every second but what good will it do just gotta keep moving along and faking it til i make it ( Read more... )

something good might be happening and i hope i really hope it does. So ready for some good people to enter my life.

I lost five more pounds this week and have lost a total of eleven pounds in three weeks go me ( Read more... )

can't shake this feeling of being lonely just wish sometimes i had someone to come over to help me get through the nights

well in a week or so i will be moving and hopefully the place i am going to look at tomorrow will be my new place of residence i get a good feeling about it and i like the person who rents them out he is extremely honest with me and telling me like it is and i like that alot.

In other news i think everything is starting to catch up with me working, ( Read more... )

 So guess who lost six pounds in a week on weight watchers

Um......... that would be me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit is annoying and frusterating but i have made it through all the unecessary bullshit of life i can do it again!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.s

its funny ever since weight watchers i seriously fucking crave salads everyday probably cause its one of those free things i can eat taht fill me up. YUMMMMMMMM salad :)