Our local SPCA has been advertising Tinkerbelle - an eight month old, deaf sweetie pie.  If I wasn't living solo, attending school, working and mom to two Bostons already, she'd be mine.

Thought maybe a connection could take place through this post to get her a forever home.  More here:

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It took a year for the intense grief and mourning to subside to a controllable level. I could not cry when Tom was alive; I was constantly rushing headlong into hope. Afterward, I cried at the supermarket because I shopped there every day to buy him the freshest of fruits and whatever he was craving at the time. I cried when I went to the ( Read more... )

Not surprisingly, the world still turns. I wish I had kept up these writings - there are many things I wish to remember. The day I finally lifted my head from its bindings of bleakness, the friends that I lost, the ones that will be with me always, the growth I've experienced... I'll have to go back and recap ( Read more... )

After his esopha/gastrectomy and follow-up surgery, Tom's torso was so covered with scars that he would boast of being a shark attack victim, or of being clenched in a dragon's maw. Expounding on that, he started calling his cancer "The Dragon", and would lament on how the infection caused by the creature's bite was spreading through his body ( Read more... )

Comcast is being such a booger - all of a sudden I can't upload changes to my webpage using Front Page. I've reloaded the program, gone through the customer (non)service harangue, deleted my files, reset passwords and nada.

So, I can't post calendar entry pictures. Sniff.

Tomorrow is the next-to-last chemo. Tom's starting to lose his hair. His face is broken out. He gets so ill after the treatment, he'll be in bed for the next three days, not eating. He did have good color in his face today ( Read more... )

and just not eating enough. My God, he's down to 108 lbs. Chemo is hard, he had his 3rd one on Tuesday and spent the last two and a half days in bed. Not eating. Not using enough Jevity in the food pump. Doctors are very concerned. I wish I could do something. Dr. JC called tonight, I'm sure tipped off by my boss's wife or one of the other docs. He ( Read more... )

No cancer in the liver or other organs, besides the esophagus and upper stomach. A relief, but the difficulties are in full swing. Surgery to insert a tube into his bowel, so he can be fed via machine at night during sleep, because he can't eat enough food to sustain himself. The operation caused immense pain, and he wound up staying in the ( Read more... )

Tom needs another test. The CT scan films show a spot, about one centimeter in size, on his liver. It could be a cyst, a scar, or cancer. We are waiting to hear when he has an appointment set up at Hopkins for a PET scan. This involves Tom being injected with radioactive sugar. Cancer likes sugar, so any malignancy will glow hot on the scan films ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is our consultation with the oncologist at Hopkins, who, supposedly, specializes in esophogeal cancer ( Read more... )