SO I hung out with Kim yesterday and Monday. I had a lot of fun with her even though we weren't going out. I like how close of friends we still are. We went to the mall and wen't on the carousel, Kim rode the cock, as in chicken for all you perves who read this. Then yesterday we just hung out at my house and watched Fight Club, well half of it ( Read more... )

I think it's time to move on. I can't just watch the world pass me by anymore. I'm still sad and everything but man. There is nothing more I can do. I've been thinking about it so much lately and I just don't want to hurt anymore. I guess all things happen for a reason. I don't know what that reason is but it is waiting for me to find it. I really ( Read more... )

It seems that as each do goes by I sink more and more into depression. All I can find myself doing anymore is crying and just watching the world go by hoping for it's end. I'm sitting in a room now kind of like a closet. The only things that are in here are just left over things that no one wants, its kind of pathetic that I relate more to these ( Read more... )

I've never been so pained by a person. I've never felt like nothing more than I do now. The one who I thought I could be with forever is now lost. She sugar coated the world. Now it is left without taste without life. Everything is so dull. Colors I thought were so bright are now as gray as my soul. I've tried and tried to make her happy. And each ( Read more... )

Things have been kind of hard on me in the last few weeks. Kim quit the band so now all that's left is me and Lauren. I have this feeling that this is going to be another Blank Page thing. If you don't know what that is it was my first band and it went no where. not one song was made nor was one practice practiced. Sigh. Oh well I guess, she's ( Read more... )

I'm in Ohio right now. IT's wierd, it's not like I remember it. There are so many new things here. I finally went to cedar point, but I can't have the best time because I always feel like there is something missing. I mean I had fun i guess with my brother. After spending everyday with Kim for a year and then going a week without her is so ( Read more... )

Alot of shit has been going on since the last entree. Me and Kim are going through a hard time. I used to look around and take everything for granted like it would always be there. Now I'm not to sure if anything will remain. And how fast things can change ; and how everything in my life is like dominoes. If one falls they all do. Everything in my ( Read more... )

I just woke up...ugh I feel like shit. I spent the night at danny's, (our bass player) it was fun...I haven't spent the night here since it was cool to have a playstation one. I have to go home soon because If I don't kim woill have my head. She reminds me of the queen in Alice in Wonderland. Cause if you do something thats not in her liking... ( Read more... )