I am not ana. I can't be. I keep having these binges and actually, since I've started writing in LJ I think I've had more trouble with this whole weight issue------perhaps I'm thinking about the whole thing entirely too much ( Read more... )

I'm having a problem.... I'm over-eating in the evenings. I go all day long, without any problems with hunger... just drinking tea, and water---no problem ( Read more... )

Weighed in at 111 this morning. I've been trying to weigh myself at night only---because I'm heavier at night... what with all the water, my clothes on, etc ( Read more... )

I didn't work out today. I hate when I miss a day, it really fucks me up. ....instead I drank like 6 or 7 glasses of wine over a period of many hours--but maintained a high state all afternoon and into the evening (even now ( Read more... )

Dudu and I went to Atlanta for the long weekend. We saw broadway's Chicago, visited the Coca-Cola factory and a bunch of other tourist things. I drank a lot. I ate too much.... etc. etc ( Read more... )

Today I weighed in at 108.
I don't feel it--but the scale wouldn't lie to spare my feelings, right???!
105 and I'll feel good....
.....I've got these jeans though---they're just always tight----always... no matter my weight---fucking jeans!

The last couple of days I haven't been doing as well as I would like. I've just had one coffee and h20 throughout the day...and then when evening hits... and I've got to help fix dinner and Dudu and I must sit together--he starts watching me, asking me questions... I hate to come back from the pot. His eyes immediately go to my plate---usually ( Read more... )

Okay... I'm going to try to be completely honest with myself and examine what's bothering me right now ( Read more... )

Okay, I have a confession to make. Last night I made dinner... vegetables roasted in the oven and salad. Dudu is back, so I have to eat one meal a day ( Read more... )

....Monday morning. We've stopped fighting.... I gave in. Until most recently (last 3 or so weeks) I thought that we'd probably marry eventually, etc. etc ( Read more... )