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Yesterday. The day before. The day before that. Stuck in front of a computer. Typing. Typing my life away. Mechanics and technology. They have never been my thing. Yet, money has always been. I have a crazy obsession with money. Obsessed. I hoard it. I keeps it. It's my precious. It's sick. I dare say, it is my downfall. No matter how ( Read more... )

I am having second thoughts about my destined place within the world.

A part of me knows it's right, and the other?

We thinks it mights be a figment of our own imagination. Yes?

In other news...my cats have reverted back into being kittens as I unfolded the old futon from when they were babies. They are starting to bathe one another and ( Read more... )

I don't want to write this in my other journal. I don't want people to know that I have reverted back to the way that things were before. I am weak. I am feeble. I don't want any arguments so I am just sticking it out this time. I am very unhappy. I want to be strong. I want to be independent. But, I am so lonely down here. Right now I am ( Read more... )

I am starting to unravel ( Read more... )

I take a great comfort in knowing that words can be defined.

It's like a syrup for my soul.

And my soul is the pancake for the DIVINE.

Thank you.

He's nine years older than me. I thought it would be good for me. Someone more mature. At least, more mature than the other boys I have dated. I never thought that he was going to be more mature than me though. I don't think that men can be more mature than women. It's not in their nature. However, I did make the assumption that he was going ( Read more... )

The world saddens me. When there is a horrific event, humanity gathers around it, gawking and staring like a group of ghoulish spectators. It's awful to see our amazement as we watch things burn to the ground. A wildfire surrounds us, and people climb to the highest bluff to overlook the awful scene, their mouths hanging open in wonder and awe ( Read more... )

There once was a time where things did not cost that much. People were seen with smiles upon their faces. Travel was more accessible. Fun was readily had. Lately, I have not been able to find fun. Fun has left me like a forlorn child. Fun has disappeared and I stand in adult-hood, wishing I was a child again ( Read more... )

I woke up in a bed of metaphorical vomit. My heads were reeling, speaking, chastising each other for not drinking enough water or wine. It didn't matter. I was going to sweat not matter what. It was just a matter of time now. Now, the only thing that could possibly matter was the taste of the sweat. Longitude and latitude. That was the only ( Read more... )