I have tried to type a note about my life for a while...I don't know what to say. I'm becoming a circus performer. It's awesome. In a way I am living my dream or at least training to live it. On top of my trapeze lessons I have started private Acrobatics lessons.

My body takes well to this stuff. I always felt I was to physical to do regular theater ( Read more... )

I never write good news. And I was waiting for good news to come but I am beggining to think it won’t. My dad is in the hospital with an unknown bacterial infection, it was supposed to be minor but it’s almost been a week and they’ve doubled his antibiotics twice and have gone in for major surgery.

I really don’t know how to handle this situation. ( Read more... )

First of all I absolutely am not allowed to complain. My life is better than many, probably millions of peoples' lives so I have no right to whine about my small trials and tributlations! I understand that I am doing so well and that there is probably no more one could expect of me and that I shouldn't feel the dread and decay that I feel on a ( Read more... )

 ok so a secret...I love Stephen! ok ok ok I know that most of you knew I mean we live together we have been together since who knows when (two years in jan) so you figure i have to. But I don't...have to...but I do. I'm so used to denying feelings for anyone because it closes me off for future relationships and relations but...i don't care. I don' ( Read more... )

I felt like I was making so much progress in my life until now....the daily pain from my back is killing me...I Really need a work buddy...sigh if i'm ever allowed to work out again...for my birthday (which is in three weeks Oct. 3) I want to look hot again or feel hot. I'm ok with the way I look (and maybe this is an illusion) but at one point I ( Read more... )

Just so you know ( Read more... )

Ah! at work we have internet and I have down time. I got this cool job working parties for children, while teaching theater during the week. Its a nice place called starland in Deerfield Il, I think for now I'll do a bit of circus, hopefully get into acrobatics and work here ( Read more... )

I'm moving in with stephen tomorrow. It's exciting. Fantastic even. But scary ( Read more... )

I have been making masks check out the pics on myspace or facebook ( Read more... )

I went to a drag show last night and it actually made me insecure. I can't ever hope to be healthy and have 3% body fat....and muscle lines every where. I was so jealous. I can't have skinny long legs or a beautifully defined stomach. Its not my type. I mean I'm muscular just not slenderly so ( Read more... )