i hate girls. which is why i only have a select few friends who are girls. honestly, if you're that insecure that you have to tell your boyfriend not to be friends with me, you might want wanna look at your relationship with him a little bit more. but hey, that's just me ( Read more... )

i miss my long hair. :(
& the beginning of last year.
& being innocent.
& people not hating me so much.
i've already apologized, but i can do it again.
i wish all of this drama would just.. stop.

meh

i'll probably update this with a picture update next time.
since i hate writing in this thing.

i fell in love today...

with my brand new purse & my brand new jack's mannequin cd.

i'm a lot more competitive than i thought i was.

& a lot more jealous than i have been in.. ever.

but a lot more happy also. :)

i used "a lot" 3 times in the four sentences i wrote. whateverrr.

"i'm talking to my best friend." that. made me really happy to hear. after everything that's happened, i didn't think we'd even be talking again. i need him in my life. no matter how small a part he plays in it ( Read more... )

my heart & my head are clearly not on the same page.

i wanted to ask a question i didn't want the answer to.

i have loose ends everywhere. school, work, confirmation class..

i thought i was getting a lot stronger than this. but clearly not. i keep letting people in my life that continually hurt me. & i always try to make other people happy before i try to make myself happy. all that it's done for me is kick me in the ass.

.. & now that me and him talked, it hurts a lot more than when we weren't talking.

it's been awhile.
school's okay.
work's okay.
friends are okay.
everything is just.. okay.

blah. i need to do well in school this year. well, better than that. & i know i say that every year, but this year i really need to. & i should probably start working out for track. since i'm in the worst shape ever right now. eee ( Read more... )

so.. school tomorrow. bleh. i'm not excited, but i'm not really dreading it anymore, either. but i guess i'm looking forward to what the upcoming year has to bring ( Read more... )

last entry was really sappy & emo. so i promise to never, ever write one of those again ( Read more... )